my life my soul

2011-12-07T20:17:00.000-08:00

URGH~~~ Again! What the....
my maths paper fail again.
why this maths paper so hard? is difficult many more times compared to those past year question.
what to do? i had blanked out many question =(
I was very scare and nervous of course, but what can I do?
there is only one time for stpm, no second chance already!
I did tried my best to solve them, telling myself not to panic, sure I can solve it, I can do it.
but somehow I just can't do it.
even reach home, I took out the paper tried to solve again, and yet I still can't solve them =(
I'm really sad, physics, chemistry and maths paper had blown away my confidence =(
I never felt like this before, not even for spm!
this time my result sure very teruk! even I myself also can't imagine it.
maybe one A also can't get. that time sure I'll bang myself to the wall!!!
sorry mommy and daddy and everyone who are putting high hope on me =(
sorry...I just can't do it =(

2011-11-23T19:13:00.000-08:00

在车上一直狂流泪，回到家还在一直不停地哭...
一直责怪自己为什么不记得自己念过什么，为什么这么粗心？
白白送分给他，我的考卷即将面对什么样的命运，我实在是无法想象。
除了伤心，心痛，就是哭个不停。
现在的我已哭成泪人了。
我花费了很长时间在这一科上，结果换回来的是什么?!
真的真的很心痛....=(((
今天才测验的第二天，就完全被他给打败了!
接下来的几天，我到底要怎么撑下去呢? =(

2011-11-03T03:22:00.000-07:00

Times really flies man! Is just a blink of eyes and guess what, I'm officially graduate from my one and half a year form six life. At first I don't have much feelings towards this "graduate" words, somemore is graduate from sam tet, I didn't stay long at sam tet as how I stay in amc for 13 years so long, but somehow when the songs "朋友" starts playing, I cry like hell man! Oh no! I was touched by those guys who crying over besides me and everywhere. They do have much feelings towards their former school just like how I had been staying in AMC for 13 years. The feelings is really hard to describe and sad and 不舍得 is the only words I can think about. I truely never regret choosing staying down in sam tet study form 6 and my form 6 never dull. hahahahaha =D
We're having lots of activities and always go here "yum cha", "chui sui" in class, working together with all my usstians, all these had enrich my form 6 life and I'll remember every one of you. Oh ya, my sixth form dinner night just passed and everyone is putting up their best dress and customs just to have a memorable night. Is really fun and enjoying the time staying with my friends. Now everyone is study hard and let's us strive together ya!!! I really love you guys ♥♥♥

2011-10-15T05:27:00.000-07:00

Very lazy to blog recently. haha.
anyway, I'm working very hard for my coming stpm exam.
still left one more months only, times pass real fast man!
i really have to appreciate every hours, every minutes and seconds.
not to waste them, wasting time will me feel very guilty =)
heeee~ i feel excited for the coming sixth form night =)))

2011-09-28T22:50:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah people! weee =D
I'm in a good mood today after suffering for so many days.
Just knew my position among all the physics class and my class position as well.
FUYOH! I have improved a lot compared to last few exams.
I'm real happy and have strength to continue move on again =)
now only around 50 days left before stpm exam.
everyday just kept doing doing doing, hardly find times to do my revision.
but is good that I can revision while studying.
everyday different state of trial papers or past year papers, really hard to digest time in a day.
but now I really have to word hard, just like I'm longing for oxygen =)
you are really geng! really. I really look up on you and have confidence on you that sure you're one of the 4 flats students, dear =D

2011-09-15T02:14:00.000-07:00

For the very very first time in my life in form six, I have got such a good results for my pa paper! hahahaha~ I'm so so so happy!!!!! do you know about it?? hahahhaha
is a 71 marks paper man!!!! for the very very first time I have got '7' this kind of results in my form sizlife. fuyoh~~~ and I become the top scorer for this subject in my class somemore! can you ever believe it??? hahahahaha =D
Another good news wanna share with you all too!
that is....*da da da da*
I HAVE PASSED MY MATHS PAPER!!!!
hahahahaha! although is just nearer passed, but this really had made up my day =D
I have never passed my maths paper since I have attended so many exams in my form six.
this time is like MIRACLE man! hahahahaha=D
happy yet happy, but there are still some unhappy things happened.
I had failed the two most important subjects which is chemistry and physics.
I am so disappointed with my physics marks, first time ever get such a mark for my physics paper. felt real sad.
again! she passed all the 4 subjects this time, i felt really ng hoi sum.
but what can I do? she did sacrifice many things only can score such a good results.
I'm still long-way behind her!
I have swear that I'll surpass her in the following exam!!!
sure I can do it!!!
I really ng syiok when every paper you also score higher mark than me!
I felt that I'm very stupid and useless....
but not from this moment onward!
I'll make sure my chemistry and physics get A in my stpm!!!!!

2011-09-14T03:20:00.000-07:00

Yo people!! After fighting for almost one month, my stpm trial finally ended on last Tuesday.
I'm alive people! I'm not dead yet! hahahaha
however,
after getting all my results, I'm really really dead now =(
i didn't get what I have aimed and some subjects do show some improvements althought still in the range of fail! hahahahaha~
when i knew what I get for my chemistry, i was like 'WHAT THE.....'
I was so lost and really can't accept the fact that she's is actually scoring so well and much more better than me!
still remember before every paper was distributed, you are beside me, kept on telling me you'll be failing this subject that subject, get lower marks than me.
and of course i was so innocent, really believe that you're weaker than me.
but....in the end when we all got back our papers, i was so shocked and surprised by what you get!
you have totally out of my expectation! whereas I'm the one who get lower than you somemore have to act in front of you that I'm very strong, I can stand with all these circumstances!
I was totally cheated by you!
maybe I'm the one who didn't do well compared to you, but this time you had gave me more strength to study and show to you that I'm actually stronger than you!
I know that compared to you I'm not that hardworking, beautiful, such a good-acting!
but I will show to you on the following exams and stpm as well! just wait and see!
winner will be the one who standing long the most!
I kept on holding my tears these few days, try not to break down in front of you!
and yet, i'm a failure! I still failed to do so. I just felt very disappointed to myself for wasting all your courages and support giving me all these while.
I knew that I can do much more better, trust me.
please don't lost your faith on me! I'll show to you that I actually CAN! I CAN DO IT! trust me =)
somehow I do think that where is my study mood? I have lost it since lower 6.
I want to back to my former school, meet with all my besties, sharing everything with them, spend all my times with them saying those funny things but definitely not like now...
I miss them so much... ='(

2011-09-09T00:31:00.000-07:00

人，就是这么爱和人比较。什么都要和人比一下才爽。
输了，又会不甘心，自个儿躲在一旁不开心！
我自问这次考试尽力了，但成绩还是一塌糊涂。
每一次考完一次试，我都会问自己：“ 真的是我的问题吗？我为什么就是考得不比别人来得好？ ”
有的时候真的很不开心，看着身旁的好友每一个都取得不错的成绩，自己却是垫地的那个，心情真的真的很不好受！
就让人伤心的就是他们还要每一个都拿来比成绩，然后替班上的所有人排名次！
不要说我不够努力！我试问在班上比起一些人，可说是非常努力了，只不过每一次都看不见成果！
这才是让我最懊恼得。
我甚至感到有点儿自卑，当我妹妹第一次测试和我的第一次测试考试成绩简直就是一个天和一个地！我真的那么笨吗？还是我真的不够他们勤力？
我还有剩下不超过两个月就要考试了，难道我的人生就要这样结束了吗？不！！！！！
我绝对不会让它考倒我的！我深信我会是最后的胜利者！
但是一塌糊涂的成绩真的能让我成为胜利者吗？？ =(

2011-08-06T20:25:00.000-07:00

Hell ya people! leave one more month I'll be taking my trial exam soon!!!
Eeeeek~ super gan jiong!
looking all the syllabus if I'm still wasting time like now sure cannot finish and wait to die ba anjoe liew! hahahahahaha~
well, this week is just my farewell week.
wednesday went to wasabe have a great sushi buffet with my friends and sunday having usst farewell organised by my juniors. waiting waiting =D
Super junior 5th album finally revealed! All ELF's have been giving their fully support to super junior! Daebak Mr.Simple =D

2011-07-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

Can I hate you?
This is what's in my mind now!
I think you're the one who are not in the situation and think that is all our fault!
Please la! If you're not a teacher, sure I have already stand up and shoot you back!
And don't think that we are the one who had made our reputation dropped, you're the one who had to put the highest responsibility on it!
You are the one who asked us to be more strict!
You are the one who wanna say sorry to him!
And now you're the one who are heart-broken there and making all those stupid decisions to please your colleague!
You're very selfish! Just think for your own image and reputation!
Have you ever know that how many efforts we have put in all these while??
Helping the school authorities and cocuriculum management become more efficient compared to those olden days?
Just a small mistakes you can make someone grounded to this steps!
Stupid! Brainless! You don't worth to have my respect on you!
From your lesson in class tomorrow onwards, you'll know then!!!!!
Muahahahahaha

2011-07-19T18:29:00.000-07:00

Seriously I'm feeling real bad now.
To the one who really get hurt in this incident and also the one who have done wrong too.
I really never thought that this incident will made you hurt mentally and your life too.
I'm sorry. Really sorry.
Don't ask me why I have to say sorry to you although I have did nothing wrong.
Is just that I'm saying this to you on behalf of my love one. Sorry.
I don't know what can we do to make you feel better neither to stop all those rumour around you now. I really hope that I can help you in anyway I can. Sincerely =)
Almost blub it out when I had heard what my teacher told us.
Real sad, and also suddenly feeling just dropped to the bottom of my heart.
But, I have to stand strong and no to make you worry about me.
And of course, I'm still trying now.
That incident is also one of the factors made us, exco become not united and kept on having argument when dealing with our works later on. Sigh.
MMMMMMOOOOODDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!
CANNOT!!! I have to delete it from my mood now, and what I wanna say to you is "Try again =)"

2011-07-14T03:16:00.000-07:00

I"m back to my lovely bloggie again =)
Well, I REALLY HATE MATHS!!!!
That's what I'm blogging here again!
Don't know since when, i started to hate one of my favourite subject that I have liked since kindergarden.
Is it a good sign or what? seriously I found myself very scare to attend every lesson of Maths.
Just for today, i only managed to solve one and a half question during the 2 periods Maths while my other classmates almost finish the six questions.
WHAT THE......
I'm real slow, that time i really felt that OH MY GOD! Why things like this happened on me?!
I even dropped a few tears in the toilet.
I have tried very best and kept on telling myself "no worries, sure i can solve it and get the answer!"
But whenever how i tried again and again, tried real hard also cannot solve the question.
At that moment, I really hope someone are beside me and teaching me slowly one by one and comforting, encourage me =(
Really feel like dying seeing my maths so TERUK! Bluuu~
Sometimes I do think that I rather dropped my Maths subject and take up other alternatives subjects like sejarah or BM!
I'm sure that I can score better than Maths even can passed every exam =D

2011-07-01T03:18:00.001-07:00

要想坐着无所事事，你必须坐在非常、非常高的位置 =)

2011-07-01T02:41:00.000-07:00

Oh my god people! finally weekends again! Is real tired and very shen fu sin can wait dou weekends! hahahaha=D really stressed these days. teachers are all rushing syllabus and have no time for us to stop down and have a rest. We have to digest them even though we don't really understand! and is extremely irritating when you're feeling tired you also have to finish up all your homework! urgh! fed up! hahahah. and then one year passed already man! usst have been selecting new committees to take over our post. really tak berat hati to leave usst even though i only joined this club for one year and we almost having quarrel in every meeting. but I'm glad to know everyone in there and having a bunch of best friends =) and I also get to know you! heeee =)

2011-06-23T01:38:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been scolded by 3 different teachers in a day?? Ya, I'm the one, I mean my class. What a day!!!! Firstly, early in the morning scolded by Pn.Ellis because those who are re-sitting their muet didn't go to F1 attend the lesson, and they need pn.ellis come and begged and begged again to "invite" them everyday to go F1 attend her lesson. Secondly, Pn.Tham. She have all of us to draw our sitting plan in class again as those students who are being noisy are really annoying and they just can't let the others have a peaceful lesson everyday. And kee yin and I drew the last place in third row, both of us almost cried after knowing our sitting plan. Luckily teacher just wanna scare us and in the end didn't change our place. She did kept on advising us to study hard and not to make others teachers complaint about us. Lastly, Pn.Tong. She printed our mid-year position among physics class students and called us one-by-one go out and let us know our position. 90 days left! That's all I remembered for what she told us, she need us to work harder and less on9. Just strive our best within these 90 days. And I met with foo and shueh cheng today after school. And I also just finish my sukan tara. Tired! Urgh~ WHAT A DAY =(((((

STARWALK =)

2011-06-19T04:06:00.000-07:00

I guess "starwalk" this event is an event which every teenage in Ipoh don't wish to miss out want! hahahahaha =D is a healthy event which get strongly agreement from parents and society as well =) this same goes to my parents! I had a nice walk today and enjoying moment being with you! heeee~ and guess what I get for my birthday present?? I got a teddy which named "manny zai" and a new wallet! I love both of them sooooo muchhhhhhiessss! heeeee =)

2011-06-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!
I"m being lazy again!
anjoe liew! still remember what you had promised in the previous post??
wanna study hard and less on9! LOL
see what i'm doing now.
just feel like sleeping whenever i wanna do my homework, and watch tv, on9 non-stopped!
this shouldn't happen for this moment!
when can I find my WILL to study??
just like the movie "green lantern"
hahahahahaha!
i really wonder when =(

2011-06-17T18:16:00.000-07:00

Yay! people! I'm legally 19 years old now! LOL
really happy that received so much wished from my friends today!
truely make up my day!
of course not to forget the celebration in school!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!! heeee~
i'm having a great day and tonight going to have dinner with my family =)
tomorrow going out again to celebrate my birthday!
Hooray! hahahahaha!
i'm gonna received a huge manny zai soon *waiting eagerly*

2011-06-17T02:52:00.000-07:00

duh! what a week!
I'm like become more stupid after my school holidays ended.
in class, teacher is like sitting in a jet!
kept on teach and teach and teach, without waiting us these kind of SLOW students!
Is killing me and this made me very stress and ng hoi sum!
i almost having breathing difficulties in every lesson of maths and chemistry =(
homework is like tone of mountain!
everyday also have homework need to hand-in!
somemore this week my club is having an interview session for lower 6 exco!
i busy till wanna faint already!
time management! still my biggest weaknesses
i really can feel that stpm is coming soon!
everyone starts preparing and working hard now!
i think i'm not going to spend so much time on online already. Hmmm =)

2011-06-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

Owh.....
Is my holiday gonna end in this way?!
really TAK BERAT HATI-nyyyaaaa~~~
let's see what have i done during this holiday.
moviesss?! X-men, Kung Fu Panda
sing k? yes! at e-box
tuition? oh ya, monday to wenesday
homework?? hell yes, a lot man! till now also not yet finish them =(
study?? even cover also didn't touch!
attended Miss Tham's wedding dinner! somemore went to pasar malam with my classmates! awesome! =D
and one more! I had attended SMI Scouts 4th former gathering! Yay =D
I have hang out with foo, adeline, denise, ling, yee xin's gang, and also manny! Yay =D
two weeks holidays to me is totally not enough!
is just overed in just a blink of eyes =(
I want to play, hang out with my friends more!
urgh~~~~
anyway, i'm gonna start working hard again after this holidays!
is real real hard that kind.
gonna brush up on my maths and chemistry!
help me ah dear =D

我又这个机会吗？=)

2011-06-03T18:45:00.000-07:00

23岁。

她陪你参加你朋友的婚礼。

婚礼上新郎亲吻新娘。

你搂着身边的她说：我们也结婚吧。

她偏偏挣脱你的怀抱扭过头，

我才不要嫁给你呢。

脸上却都是甜蜜。

25岁。

你们结了婚。

卧室里，客厅里挂满了你们的结婚照。

你搂着她喊;

程太太、程太太...

她像每一个疼爱丈夫的小妻子一样，

每天早上帮你备好早餐、挤好牙膏、选好今天要搭配的领带。

你出门前会在她额上印一个吻。

下了班，买些她喜欢的水果回来。

她最爱吃桃子，又很讨厌外面那层茸毛。

你总是洗干净再给她。

吃过晚饭，你总要和她争电视。

她要看八点档的肥皂剧，你要看球赛。

她争不过你，就垂下脑袋一副委屈的小模样。

你便会乖乖把遥控器让给她。

这招百试百灵。

28岁。

她为你生了个可爱的儿子。张的像她多一些。

你总说：怎么长的像你啊，那么丑，将来找不到媳妇怎么办？

要是像我多好，肯定是个大帅哥。

但是，每次抱在怀里都舍不得放手。

逢人就夸：我儿子特聪明，像我。

晚上小家伙哭的厉害，她怕影响你休息，整晚都不敢睡熟。

孩子一动就马上醒来轻轻的哄着。

她说，长大了要让儿子当科学家，多有出息。

你说，要当宇航员，那样才酷。

你们吵架了。你很生气。

下了班故意约了几个朋友聚一聚，很晚才回家。

打开门就看见半躺在沙发上睡着的她。

桌子上的菜还冒着热气，不知被加热了多少次。

你突然就忘了生气的原因。

轻轻抱起她回了卧室。

33岁。

你下班回家，她正系着围裙在厨房忙着做饭，或者煮粥。

你扔下公文包，扯了领带。

就走过去从后面抱住她。

她拍开你的手，

去去去，快去洗澡去，一身的汗味儿。

于是，你就扯着你刚上幼儿园的儿子进了浴室。

她从厨房出来，看到的就是地板上散满家里两个男子汉的衣服。

一大一小两个男人把小小的浴室折腾的一片狼藉。

她正想埋怨你又弄脏了她好不容易脱好的地，

听见里面你和孩子的打闹声，又忍不住笑出来。

到了周末，你们会领着儿子去游乐园。

儿子走累了，就闹着要你抱。

你一只手抱着儿子，一只手牵着她。

你觉得自己特伟大。

40岁。

情人节。

你买了一大束玫瑰给她。

她埋怨你都40岁的人了还玩年轻人的把戏，没个正经。

却又忙着找来花瓶，想着摆在哪里最合适。

你坐在电脑前制文件，她就煮一杯咖啡给你。

你让她先去睡。

她说她不困，再陪你一会儿。

46岁。

晚上她肚子疼的厉害。

你吓坏了。

6层楼，你背着她没有停下来喘一口气。

其实你已经很久没有背过她了，

她突然发现你的背已经不似从前那般宽广、厚实。

她有点心疼，坚持自己走，你不让。

她问你，是不是很累？

你说：就算到了80岁，我还是能背的动你。

只是个小手术，你却小心的不得了。

又是煲汤，又是煮饭。

很长时间不许她做家务。

她只能看着笨手笨脚的你把家里搞的一团糟。

原来这么多年，你们从未改变。

53岁。

你们的儿子也结婚了，儿媳妇很贤惠。

只是他们工作在外，都不再身边。

她常常念叨着想儿子，

担心儿子只顾着忙不知道注意身体，

想见他又怕影响她工作。

你怪她操太多心，

却又偷偷背着她给儿子大电话，要他有空常回来看看。

你年轻时落下的毛病，天冷的时候关节老是疼。

天一转凉，她就早早备好御寒的衣物。

每次你出门，总要叮嘱你多穿件衣服。

你嘴上嫌她碎碎念，每次却都按她说的做。

60岁。

你孙子都要上小学了。

你退休了，她也老了。

头上的白发遮也遮不住。

你喜欢早上去打打太极，

有时候也会陪她去买菜，

或是到中心广场看扭秧歌。

过马路的时候还是习惯伸手去拉她。

倒是她变得不好意思，

她说，一把年纪了，也不怕别人笑话。

70岁。

你坐在藤椅上，看报纸。

你的眼睛已经有些看不清了，必须带着眼镜。

她就坐在你身边，翻着泛黄的相册。

现在的你们常常回忆起过去的事。

你们相知、相识。

你们结婚、生子。

你对她说，

刚认识她时觉得她傻乎乎的，像个长不大的孩子。

你看现在，

脸上都是皱纹了、腰弯了、牙齿也松了。

变成老太婆了。

她说，

恋爱的时候她的朋友总夸你帅气，脾气又好。

羡慕的不得了。

只有她知道其实你毛病多着呢。

你哈哈笑，你说这么多年你还不是一样都忍过来了。

你们年轻的时候，总是想老了以后会怎么怎么样。

没想到，这么一个转身，

一辈子真的就这么过来了。

80岁。

她的身体越来越不好。

脑子也开始迷糊，一句话反反复复会说上好几遍。

一会儿看不见你，就会像孩子一样慌起来。

后来，她在病床上的时候对你说，

她这辈子最幸福的事就是能嫁给你。

你说，你这辈子最幸运的事就是遇见了她。

我想，

在这个世界上。

一定有一个这样的你和她吧。

一定有像你们一样幸福的人吧。

我是多么地羡慕的你们，

这样幸福的你们。

而我这一生，

如果能找到一个像你或像她这样的爱人。

那么，

不管要走多远的路，都会是值得的。

2011-05-31T22:14:00.000-07:00

I'm extremely tired these few days. The feeling of kept on waiting for someone to reply your message especially the one you cared the most is super awful! It made you can't concentrate in doing anything. In the end, you'll become more and more angry while the person don't know about it, you will end up having a sleepness night. I hate that kind of feeling, seriously! But....in the end, the problem settled. I wonder the way I settled the problem is a bit too mean for you, but seriously, when someone is on mad, you won't know what will he/she will do on the next second, they can't analyze things rationally. Their mind is being occupied by all kind of anger which they had kept for so long. Haha. I really hope I can control my emotion well when i'm dealing with the same problem in the future, and is really a good lesson for both of us =)

2011-05-23T04:57:00.000-07:00

泪水已经不懂流了几个夜晚和白天了
这几天情绪都很激动
动不动就能轻易地掉泪
尤其是谈到成绩这一块
不用几秒钟的时间就能泪洒满面了！哈哈
就只能怪自己为什么越长越笨！
看着身边的朋友一个接一个地进步神速
而自己却停留在原地不动
真的感到悲哀和心酸
当自己一个人在车里时，总是能轻易地掉泪
今天，在班上被老师狠狠地捏了！
痛得我不懂能做什么了！
很伤心，但强忍不在班上流泪！
一直强忍到现在！真的真的很辛苦 ='(
不懂能再向谁倾诉了！什么也不想说！
只想一个人默默忍住！谁也不找！
一个人盖在被窝里放声大哭

2011-05-23T04:28:00.000-07:00

小气的我又再闹脾气了 =（
今天当我得知你那么幸运被选为其中一位能到香港大学参观时，
心里很是替你感到开心，
但是，在内心深处里同时也感到有点不开心
一，就是羡慕你有这么优秀的成绩让老师相中你
二，不开心在这个假期里少了你陪我
三，痛恨自己为什么不把书给念好？要不然我也会是其中一位被抽中的同学 =（
小气的我！就连我自己也不懂为何我要为了这些小事闹脾气！
不过，现在的我想通了！
如果你还有这么一次机会可以再被选中的话，我不会再这么小气，想不通了！
我只会在你身边囔着，向你掏最大份的礼物 =D

2011-05-20T19:19:00.000-07:00

Am I a student without brain?

2011-05-19T02:27:00.001-07:00

要求不高
我只是想要pass吧了
难道就不行吗？
sigh =(

2011-05-18T20:59:00.000-07:00

Yes! exam over. Once again I'm not as happy nor excited as expected! why? the same old phrase " I didn't do well in my exam these few days" sigh. all subjects failed again =( i already failed don't know how many times till don't have any feelings already. is it consider a good sign or what? hahahaha~ even me myself also don't know. Anyway, exam is over, is a pathway where everyone of us have to go through with it and accept all the challenges bravely! I had fell sick these few days and also having serious insomnia. can't really have a good rest! today even worst! I did broke down half-way answering my maths paper, try not to disturb others candidates and covered my face with handkerchief and cried ='( at that moment, i really wanna gave up answering my exam paper, but i forced myself sitting inside the exam hall for 3 hours while looking very hard at my dear's back. At last, the 3 hours have gone and i did have a hard time in there. Really feel like dying when hand-up my answer sheets =( suin ler, I aim for stpm geh, not this stupid schl mid-year term exam. I also heard that F1 class all failed their chemistry with only 2 of them passed the papers jek! Sei mou! what is my class, F2 geh nasib? sigh. really no eyes see ler. somemore parents day this coming july. I'm gonna die very soon! hahahahahaha

touching heart =)

2011-04-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

一個晚上

男孩只抽煙不說話
女孩的心也越來越涼『連挽留都不會表達的情人能給我什麼樣的快樂？』
過了許久
男孩終忍不住說：「怎麼做你才能留下來？」
女孩慢慢地說：「回答一個問題，如果你能答到我心裏就答案，我就留下來。」
「比如我非常喜歡懸崖上的一朵花，而你去摘的結果是百分之百的死亡，你會不會摘給我？」
男孩想了想說：「明天早晨告訴你答案好嗎？」
女孩的心頓時灰了下來
早晨醒來，男孩已經不在
只有一張寫滿字的紙壓在溫熱的牛奶杯下
第一行，就讓女孩的心涼透了「親愛的，我不會去摘
但請容許我陳述不去摘的理由
你只會用電腦打字
卻總把程式弄得一塌糊塗
然後對著鍵盤哭
我要留著手指給你整理程式
你出門總是忘記帶鑰匙
我要留著雙腳跑回來給你開門
酷愛旅遊的你
在自己的城市裏都常常迷路
我要留著眼睛給你帶路
每月（好朋友）光臨時
你總是全身冰涼，還肚子疼
我要留著掌心溫暖你的小腹
你不愛出門
我擔心你會患上自閉症
我要留著嘴巴軀趕你的寂寞
你總是盯者電腦
眼睛給糟蹋得已不是太好了
我要好好活著
等你老了
給你修剪指甲
幫你拔掉讓你懊惱的白髮
拉著你的手
在海邊享受美好的陽光和柔軟的沙灘
告訴你一朵朵花的顏色
像你青春的臉…
所以
在我不能確定有人比我更愛你以前
我不想去摘那朵花…」
（女孩淚滴在紙上
形成晶瑩的花朵）
抹淨眼淚，女孩繼續往下看：
「親愛的
如果你已經看完了
答案還讓你滿意的話
請你開門吧
我正站在門外
手裏提著你最喜歡吃的鮮奶麵包…」
女孩拉開門
看見他的臉
緊張得像個孩子
只會把擰著麵包的手在她眼前晃

………………

我想這就是愛情或者生活
被幸福平靜的包圍時
一些平凡的愛意
總被渴望激情和浪漫的心忽略
愛！在雙方引起的許多個微不足道的動作裏，
從來就沒有固定的模式
只有愛
可以是任何一中平淡無奇的形式
花朵、浪漫
不過是浮在生活表面的淺淺點綴
在它們的下面才是我們真真的生活。

2011-04-25T07:59:00.000-07:00

Hmm...it seems that one year passed real fast. And is just like a blink of an eye, and now lower six students is gonna enroll for the their form six on 9th of may. So because of this reason, our mid-year exam have been postpone to 12th 0f may. Really hope that I can finish the syllabus in time =) and today went to ate sushi with manny! hou full er! Hahaha =D and for your informayion people, I'm falling sick. sore throat, having difficulty in swallow my air liur. really pain! Hahaha. Can't talk much now, much keep quiet! Shhhh....=p

2011-04-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

Well people! When everyone now is busy doing their revision for the coming mid-year exam, see what I'm still doing here. I'm blogging! Surprise?! Haha. I always have such a good, well-planning in my head what's I'm doing to revision for the day. It just seems too perfect and I think I can finish doing all the revision before the exam. But....everytime I'll end up doing all those stupid, wasting-time things as follows: reading storybook, play with my cell phone, texting, doing homework, sleeping of course and not forget sitting in front my comp blogging. See! I'm great in wasting time right? hahahaha =D "The pro queen of time wasting" My new nickname =) Like it or not, this is my bad habit which I always repeating. Whenever exam is finish and I do not get a good grade, I'll told myself I"ll start doing revision more earlier for the coming up next exam. And of course, every time I just failed to do it, and end up rushing all the syllabus when exam coming nearer and nearer! And forced myself squeezed all those things into my small little tiny spacing brain memory. Ahahahaha =D this is no good! NO GOOD! Ya, i knew it. But somehow this is me. Can you, ya I'm saying you LAZY BUGS! Can you all just get lost from my? Don't hide underneath my skin already!!! Sigh. Just failed to do it each time. hahahaha. still left 16 days people. Let's gambateh! Wanna make all the people with all their eyes and jaws dropped and open widely upon my results! Wahahahahaha~ *what a nice dream to dream at if I'm not putting any effort* =)

sorry =(

2011-04-20T01:22:00.000-07:00

Do you ever have the feeling that suddenly don't feel like talking to someone who is close to you, and just for that particular person and time only? well, i always facing this problem ever since I'm in primary school even till now, form 6. Could you ever imagine that? this moment I can very close with you, sot with you, laugh like insane while the next second I can just don't talk with you, feel that every action you did and your voice is annoying. I just hate this same old problem whenever I'm facing it. Or can I say this is actually Gemini characteristic? Mmm...I wonder. And this time the victim is the one whom I really close with, not a word can describe our relationship. I just felt so sorry to you, maybe now when you're reading my blog, you'll have the same feeling like me. Feel that what I did is stupid, pointless, annoying and frustrated. Really sorry if you're having such feeling. I just hope that I have high EQ enough to control my emotion. Really feel like slapping myself hardly to wake myself up!!! Bang to the wall also can! Urgh~ sorry er, dear =(((((

Take care =)

2011-04-15T20:48:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna miss you badly, sir =( you're my second male teacher that has teached me in school. You're such a dedicate muet teacher, I will never forget your effort, will always remember what you have taught us in class, the way you tease us, scold us, cold jokes often pop out from your mouth without any signal given. Hahaha. I do enjoy the moment we spent in class together. Gonna miss you badly, sir. Take care =)

2011-04-12T20:38:00.000-07:00

People around me knew that I'm having serious shoulder pain. I always thought that is just my muscle pain, not a big deal. And so, I didn't care it much too. Just apply some pain killer on my shoulder to reduce its pain. Sometimes, I will suffer from this pain till any work also cannot complete, not even writing. And today, I went to visit a doctor. The doctor told me that I'm not having any disease, no medicine can eat to recover it. The only way to recover it is through exercise and correct my improper sitting posture. Because of my laziness for not exercise regularly, and now I have to do push-up everyday, at least 3-5 times per day. And I do find that my shoulder pain is not so serious already compared to last time. So people, don't be lazy to exercise ya. Health is really important =)

2011-04-09T19:40:00.000-07:00

My bones are almost cracked now. Pain till no feeling already. Walking is a problem to me now. Sigh. Really old jor! Haha. Well, there's still less one month before my mid-year exam. This time I really have to work hard, no more outings for me, no more laziness hide under my skins, less on9, just to concentrate on my study =) Hope that I wont get anymore D in my report card! I really wanna impress others, and keep their mouths shut! Is really irritating and annoying enough hearing them comparing each other in the class! I just don't want to be last 10 ranking in my class! I wanna be top 10 this time! Believe me that I can do it this time! I really can do it although there are some small voices popping out from nowhere telling me that I can't do it. Heee =) Just no more comparing myself with others! No more crying, no more giving up in my dictionary! I have to be tough and have confidence in myself! Bless me people =)

I love you =)

Merentas desa

2011-04-09T10:23:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm old enough! That's what I can say.
My bone almost cracked after the doing all the running. Urgh.
Well, this event is organized by my school, every class required to send some representatives to take part in this event.
Is fun actually, I mean like almost the whole school students is all running together =)
Janice cheong did joined us today, glad to see her again.
How I wish AMC have this kind of event last time.
Is a healthy activity, and even can bring each other closer =)
I didn't run much, just kept on walking and chit-chatting with my friends indeed.
hahahahaha =D

2011-04-08T18:16:00.000-07:00

Finally the interview session for the intake of form 4 exco is over.
Is tiring you know.
Everyone giving the same answer, just very few of them is outstanding only.
Somehow there are some arguement between our committees.
But overall is fun =)
Just hope that we can intake some quality leaders continue to move USST to the highest level! =D

Sad case =(

2011-04-06T17:00:00.000-07:00

This incident shouldn't happen on such a beautiful and kind-hearted girl.
Is just not fair and not suppose to happen on her.
I'm so worried when I heard it from my friend.
I have become moody all in a sudden, and just wanna cry out loud.
The irresponsible lorry driver definitely will have his balasan soon!
Thank God for blessing my friend and she's not badly injured.
I almost lost a friend, a best friend of mine =(
Take care foo! will support and lend you a hand whenever you need our help =)
You'll be fine soon =)

2011-04-04T23:57:00.001-07:00

This is a letter written by a little girl to the heavenly God.

"I have been facing some problems in the relationship between my boyfriend and I. You know, I am some kind of the people who are very straightforward, words will just thrown out from my mouth without filtering through my brain. For sure, this has eventually leads to many problems. People who are around me easily get hurt and sometimes they will show temper on me as well =( This weaknesses had bothering me quite a number of times, sometimes things will turn out more worst than what you expected!

I have always been very straightforward to my boyfriends, and this had made him easily get emotionally affected, unhappy without my notification. Indeed I do believe that I'm made from insulator, as I'm not sensitive enough. I have no ideas how many times I do actually made him upset and unhappy because of this bad habit. mmm =( This is kinda sad actually. Sometimes things just gone out where it suppose are not to be. At that moment, you'll find out that you're very helpless. When your partner feel sad or unhappy, surely you'll feel the same. Both of you will emo together. Sigh.

" Disappoint ", " Frustrated", " Emotionally affected".....these kind of words you can always be found on him, as I'm the one who always made him emo, give him trouble, not tolerate enough when deal with some problems. I just hate myself sometimes why I'm a noob, always made him unhappy and emo again and again. Sigh. I felt that I'm very useless......=( For some time being, I'll think that is it I'm not ready for a relationship or I'm not mature enough to handle such a relation. That kind of pain and heartbroken is not someone can easily understand unless he/ she had undergone such experience. "
A helpless girl

So, can god please kindly lead this miserable girl who lost herself and let her become herself again?? Give her some guidance and advice if possible. She don't want to lose that boy badly. She can't suffer from that kind of pain, is truely painful. She loves him very much =(

MUET speaking test

2011-04-04T01:10:00.000-07:00

Finally today is my muet speaking test. I'm the second session candidate, which is 11am. So 45mins before the test, all the candidates have to be quarantined in a room. I'm the last group, so my friends and I have been waiting for almost 2 hours plus in the classroom in order to wait for our turn. We had a lot of fun in the classroom while waiting our turn. hahaha. I started to feel nervous when almost is my turn. I'm candidate A, so I'm the one who starts to speak first. I didn't use the 2 minutes wisely, lack of points when I'm doing task A. However, I tried my very best to gain some more marks during the task B discussion. Really hope that I won't score badly in this speaking paper. I still have 3 more papers to go next saturday. Hope that I can get at least band 4 in my muet =)

Social ill

2011-04-02T19:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I was just wondering what has the world become nowadays? Especially teenage. Some of them just don't have the sense of moral value with them, aren't they are suppose to have it since we have started expose to moral this subject when we're in kindergarden? Owh! Come on, please act more mature and think rationally. Just think for your parents and for god sake as well. They are somehow like, ermm, can I say brainless? I know I shouldn't be so rude, but that's all I can say when you saw it with your real eyes. Really have the feeling scolded them on behalf of their parents. Just keep all your stupid faces and your rudeness away from us. That is a school please! All of you are still in a school compound yet you guys are so dare enough to do such a stupid act. Please respect the people who are performing. If you don't want to watch a concert quietly and enjoy it, then just get loss! What is the point of staying and hanging around the school compound late at night and somemore trying to do such brainless action? It's real shameful! And yet we can't stopped them and controlling them. Sigh. Is really heartbroken when teenage nowadays don't have the sense of moral value and common sense in their brain. What is contain inside their brain? I'm just pointing certain teenage only, not all of you. You all just take care of it, and should use your brain think more critically!

2011-04-01T19:38:00.000-07:00

Mmmm....
muet speaking test is on next monday!
just pray that I can pass the test with flying colours without facing any obstacles
Gambateh =)
wish me all the best and to all the other form 6 students too =D

Happy April Fool =)

2011-04-01T07:20:00.000-07:00

Can't deny that this year is my most memorable and the most meaningful april fool ever =D Why I say so? As today is not only my best friend, kee yin's birthday, but is also the first time I really enjoying this special day in my life! Hahahaha. Is fun to trick with someone while the person can't sense it at all. Hahaha. A very good example is you, Miss Ewe =)

No jokes that april fool is really her birthday! What a special day indeed =) So, mae yin, yee xin, shi yuhn, yuen sun and I decided to fool on the birthday girl. The whole day we all never talk a word to her, cancel out her name for rocket competition without seeking her permission, pakat with teachers to fool on her, kept on teasing her, left her alone during recess, cheated her that can't celebrate her birthday with her as we all having meeting and not free, not singing birthday song to her in class and etc. Hahahaha. Is really a tough day for her and us as well. Especially me, I can't talk the whole day. Urgh. And finally all these actions made her break down during recess. So Sorry girl =)

After school, we all going mp celebrate with her and gave her surprise =D She did have a shock of what we had done to her the whole day after listened to our explanation. Hahhaha. She's really happy and truely have an unforgettable birthday in her life =) We all quite satisfied that our plan had succeed and we're friends afterall. Hahaha. I love you guys =) I have found my new gang of friends in class just like animal kingdom in 5S8. Hahaha. Simply that we are cheerful always and are talkative enough that bring our distance closer and strengthen our friendship bond =)

2011-03-31T07:28:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to my two best friends!!!
31/3 is frog chow while april fool is our miss ewe! Heeee =)
wish you guys stay healthy and happy as always. Friends forever. love you guys =)

More than any words that can say =)

2011-03-25T01:21:00.000-07:00

"I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you."
"A simple I love you means more than money."
♥

Trust

2011-03-24T03:56:00.000-07:00

Really never never thought that the person is YOU!!! I do always believe that you're not such a person, but seriously you had disappoint me! Maybe is just the time problem for knowing you that you're such a person. You know, is upset when i knew what you had did to me and my friends! I really should beware of you from the beginning of time. well, since you had did that tome, I promise you won't have good days from now onwards! Muahahahaha~ Beware that I'll take revenge on you anytime, anywhere! Don't you regret for what you had done =D

2011-03-23T02:34:00.000-07:00

Well, seriously anyone who got the same results as me, I bet you won't be in a good mood anymore. Haha. Why? Because is just like a piece of shit. Haha. Ermm, although every subject seem like I did score better than last year final exam, but for me is just not enough, I'm still not satisfied with it. I always believe that I can do much more better if I have more time in each paper. Sigh. I just need to train my brain think much more faster, more things to pop-out during exam, write much more faster as if I have speed writing. seriously not panic till what I had studied all have forgotten. This is truely sad. Hahaha. I'm jealous with the others why they can just score such a beautiful results and have a smart brain. Why can't I be like them? Hahaha. People! It seem that almost every post of mine also related to academic, study and results. This is likely to be a no-ending story. Sigh. CANNOT!!!! I really must find back that feeling I have been lost since last year and study like no other business! I wanna score a beautiful one before STPM trial. Wish me luck, friends =) I CAN DO IT!!!!!! Heeee =)

urgh!

2011-03-11T04:11:00.000-08:00

The torturing three days exam finally is over. Although we only take up four subjects in total, but is really difficult than studying 11 subjects in SPM. Hahaha. See the great difference?! Well, seriously i didn't do my best in this march test. I always believe that I can score better rather than this marks. Just that no matter how many times I have read it again and again, I still get these kind of marks. Sigh. I did broke down after my chemistry paper. My heart is so pain after seeing friends around kept on discussing the questions while I sat alone at my own place. Emo there. Very noob right? But is just the feeling that after you had put in so much of effort in it, the result you get is not much different than you're not studying at all. Is disappoint, fed up that kind of feeling in all =( Overall my results is better than last year final exam, but I'm still not satisfied with it. Wait me, I promised I'll be back in some times! Is gonna be a totally difference of me! Wahahahaha~

Holidays now. I got many stuffs to do in my list. I'm not gonna wasted my holidays this time. I'll be involved in the Perak state debate competition which open to all secondary school as a time watcher, gonna finish up my homework, study for my muet test, watch movie, shopping, makan and etc. hahahaha =D

Lastly, thank you for those who stay beside me when I'm down and moody. I love you =)

2011-03-02T23:14:00.000-08:00

郁闷！
什么都不想说
什么都不想做
就连考试要到了，我现在也不想读书！
谁也不找，任何短讯或电话也不接也不回！
就只想在这里说完就算！
不要问我什么事，不要问我怎么了！
女人！本来就是多愁善感！哈哈~

2011-02-22T02:24:00.000-08:00

Here Again =)

Once again after a period of time, I'm back here, blogging. Miss my bloggie. Heee =) Ermm, many things happened recently and I'm gonna summaries it.

Firstly, is my cny celebration. Is totally not syiok at all as our school holidays started too early already. Duh! Anyway, my cny holidays is totally packed one, I don't wish to miss anyone of the event. Haha =D Having reunion dinner with my families, get angpaussss from relatives of course, going to sing k with my cousins, cny visit with my classmates, gathering with my old classmates and gambling. Ahah! This is what I had done during my holidays. Although time seem really not enough for me, but indeed I enjoyed myself by having a great cny. However, banana fell sick during cny =( made me kinda worried with him as I'm not beside him and can't take care of him that time. sum tong sum tong =( he become thin already after all the vomiting and no appetite on meals at all...sigh~ Anyway, finally he's recover and I can relieved at last =)

Secondly, friends are meant to be by your sides when you're facing difficulties and gone through up and down together. Somehow I'm just curious why there are some people have two sided-face. They can be very friend when being with you, but...once they turned around, they will backstabbed you and kept on saying all your bad things. This kind of people sometimes really disgusting me and make me don't really know how to face them when meet with them. And now, I won't care much like last time already. I'll just keep an eye open and close on this matter. haha. I think with this, at least I would feel more happier and no need to waste time on those unnecessary things which buggling me.

Next, is my society. Boycott is seem to be common in every society nowadays. "Oh! I don't agree with the way he deals with this problem! Let's boycott him! " or " I don't syiok him! Let's boycott him!" hahaha. For me, this things never happened in my past 18 years life before. Or I would like to say that my mind is not as complicated as you all. hahaha. Sometimes problem really need to be taken out and solved it in a more peaceful way. And I'm glad that finally this problem have been solved and now the bond between us become more stronger =)

Last year STPM results had been announced yesterday. The time the results was being announced, my class was having physics lesson in the lab. All of us just stood along the corridor watching all those form 6 students' expression once they had get their results. Some are crying, some are just plain expression while some are delighted. Overall my school STPM results was the best in perak state =D According to the teachers, the level of passing rate have been dropped and is worst compared to last few years seniors. Pressure are being pushed on us, target are aiming high and we, the upper 6 students can really feel the stress. Sigh. Reading is fun of course, but reading just for the sake of exam is totally not fun. I don't think that the knowledge we learnt now get to apply on our jobs next time, sometimes is just pointless. But for the sake of school and parents, and our future as well, we got no choice. We have to study hard to get into a famous university, get a scholarship and have a better job in the future. This world is reality =)

Still the same old phrase, study hard study hard. Exam is just around the corner, seriously I'm feeling tensed now. Just want to get rid of all those "FAILED" or "PARTIALLY FAILED" in my report cards. My pre-Muet had passed. I'm upset with my performance in this papers. I didn't plan my time well and I'm sure that I can't score well in this paper already. Sigh. Anyway, before it's too late, I still have some times to prepare my muet test. I really want to make my parents feel proud on me and don't want to look down by others. Gambateh =)

2011-02-01T08:50:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I'm just wondering, am I that stupid? Am I that lazy? Or is it I'm not hardworking enough? All these questions have been popped out after I have listened to my friends shared their life in overseas. They'd been worked so hard over there, till a level that I can't really imagine how hardworking are they till they are all passed with flying colour. The moment they said their testpaper marks, I was like OH-MY-GAWSH! I'm the worst among the rest. I'm not dare to tell them how GOOD is my results. Ok, I admit it. I'm "gia su", like what those chinese like to say, I just cannot stand that I'm actually the worst compared to them, while all the time being in secondary school I'm better compared with them. Is just so hard to make me accept the facts. Seriously, I felt very guilty and sorry to myself for not doing my best in lower six as if I have wasted half of a year don't know doing what. I knew that I didn't concentrate in my study, always think of going out with my friends, busy with my society and etc. Is all my fault, I just can't stand firm and easily attracted by others factors around me. Time cannot be wasted so anymore, now I'm actually competing with time. If I can manage my time well, many problems can be solve eventually. I can spend more time on my study, be with my friends, online, watch tv programme and etc. From now onwards, I won't waste my time and will spend it wisely without regret. Just make sure I can stand it till the end of the year =)

2011-01-31T08:22:00.000-08:00

双子的孤独无药可医双子座：5月22日～6月21日

双子的孤独无药可医，他们的单纯使他们经常把很多事放在感性的放大镜下观看，虽然表面上理性。

所有的一切都被虚化被美化，他们的内心认为朋友就是在危难时刻拔刀相助不计后果的，爱情就是简简单单没有的，但事实并不是这样，现实的很多碰壁很多失望令他们手足无措，原来世界并不是他们想象中的那样，而他们追求完美的天性和孤傲的本质令他们与孤独就此结缘，那种痛彻骨髓的冷，无处可诉的悲凉，看着自己亲手毁掉曾经美好的梦想。

有人说孤独每个人都有，太自恋了吧。但双子的孤独只有双子自己知道，那是没有可能治好的绝症。因为双子天生就是两个心，两颗脑，他们的感受，他们的所思所想都是双倍的。但他们却只有一个躯体，一个世界。

所以，他们注定这样孤独而劳碌的用一个人的身体承受着两个人的快乐与伤悲，还有永远的孤独。

这是一个天生残缺的星座，天生在找寻能与自己契合的另一个人，但谁能找到一个相同的自己？？

双子不想孤傲，不愿独来独往，（其实大多数双子表面呼朋唤友，内心却从来没有依靠，孤独无依）但他们的敏感和天生的优越感使他们无法妥协。双子，有很多人羡慕他，很多人嫉妒他，很多人厌恶他，几乎没有一个星座能有这样大的争议性。我想说，双子的孩子们，他们的眼泪永远多于笑容，那些在阳光下微笑，却用眼泪洗涤如水凉夜的孩子，那些从不愿别人失望但自己却因此精疲力尽的孩子，他们的名字是双子。如果你的爱人是双子，那么请你好好爱他，（因为他真的不会自己寻找快乐）

如果你是双子座

如果你是双子座，你就要听清楚了--你的一生都注定你要去寻找你的另一半。

为了找到你的另一半，你会尝试着和各种不同的人相处、相恋。

在众人的眼里，双子都是花心的，你们花心却不会一脚踏两船，而是经常换船。

然而没有人知道你们这是为了找寻真爱阿！

只要找到了你的另一半，双子就不会再换了，双子的痴情与专一只会给一个人。双子的痴情是让人惊讶的，就像他们的花心一样让人吃惊。

然而双子又是可悲的，因为那另一半并不是每个双子都能找到的，因此双子总在茫茫人海中寻寻觅觅，找寻真正的爱情。

同时在无意之中伤害了身旁的追随者。

然而事实却是，与双子座的人谈一场恋爱是会让人永生难忘的，这段爱情绝对充满了惊喜与快乐。

所以，喜欢经常换船的双子总能轻易的找到另一条船来换。

爱上双子的人们啊，你享受到了多少快乐？那就不要在乎双子将会带给你多少无情的伤害了。除非你有信心让双子相信你就是他的另一半。

这是真正的双子！

很多人都说双子的不是，心不在焉，花心，等等，在大多人眼里双子似乎一无是处。其实双子是很脆弱的。双子害怕伤害，既不愿意伤害任何人，也不愿任何人伤害他们，并且不信任任何人，所以即便是很要好的一群朋友在一起，有些时候他们也会表现得非常沉默，因为双子的心灵总是孤独的。

他们不愿意被人理解，也不屑被人理解，很多时候，即便跟你观点有分歧，他们也不会跟你争吵，他们不屑争吵，只有在偶尔无法忍耐的时候才会弄得面红耳赤；不过对于性情温和的人，他们则极尽他们的口才以达到说服的目的，他们不愿意发生争吵。

双子的朋友基本都是泛泛之辈，感情深厚的朋友实在少的可怜。因此寂寞或是不开心时，他们通常也是一个人躲起来一言不发，不去理睬任何人，并且不希望被其他人打扰。大家平时看到的他们并不是真正的他们，他们总是在掩饰自己，自己也不明白这到底是有意还是无意的。

他们的心事通常不会跟任何人讲，即便你刨根问底也徒劳无功，只有当他们愿意倾诉的时候，他们才会告诉他们知心的朋友，通常这种机会很少。他们对大多的人、事、物都不怎么在乎，好象是以冷眼观世的态度活在这世上的，即便当他们非常在意某人某事的时候，他们也不会在他人面前轻易表现出来。

许多人蔑视双子，那是因为他们不了解双子，双子的真诚与执著我个人认为是其他人都望尘莫及的，双子想要做一件事不在乎其他人的感觉，双子对待别人虽然不甚亲切，然而即便厌恶你的时候也不轻易表露，他们的承受能力惊人的大，可是又有谁会明白他们心中的苦闷。正如有些人说的，生活真的很不容易，又何必再给他人增加烦恼。

如果哪位达人理解双子的话，那他会明白双子其实在寻找一个孤寂的世界，把自己一个人埋没于此，不让任何人知道，因为双子不愿意看到有人为自己伤心，他们的苦他们愿意一个人承担。

天下理解双子的人请善待双子。

2011-01-30T01:00:00.000-08:00

愛的感覺....不是不愛了，是人變懶惰了

愛的感覺，總是在一開始覺得很甜蜜，

總覺得多一個人陪、多一個人幫你分擔，

你終於不再孤單了，至少有一個人想著你、戀著你，

不論做什麼事情，只要能在一起，就是好的..........

但是慢慢的，隨著彼此的認識愈深，

你開始發現了對方的缺點，於是問題一個接著一個發生，

你開始煩、累甚至想要逃避，

有人說愛情就像在撿石頭，總想撿到一個適合自己的，

但是你又如何知道什麼時候能夠撿到呢?

她適合你、那你又適合她嗎?

其實，愛情就像磨石子一樣，

或許剛撿到的時候，你不是那麼的滿意，

但是記住人是有彈性的，很多事情是可以改變的，

只要你有心、有勇氣，

與其到處去撿未知的石頭，還不如好好的將自己

已經擁有的石頭磨亮磨光，你開始磨了嗎？

很多人以為是因為感情淡了，所以人才會變得懶惰。

錯！其實是人先被惰性征服，所以感情才會變淡的。

在某個聚餐的場合，有人提議多吃點蝦子對身體好，

這時候有個中年男人忽然說：「十年前，當我的老婆還是我的女朋友的時候，她說要吃十隻蝦，

我就剝二十隻給她！現在，如果她要我幫她剝蝦殼，開玩笑，我連幫她脫衣服都沒興趣了，還剝蝦殼咧！」

聽到了嗎？

難怪越來越多人只想要談一輩子的戀愛，

卻遲遲不肯走入婚姻。

因為，

婚姻容易讓人變得懶惰。

如果每個人都懶得講話、懶得傾聽、懶得製造驚喜、

懶得溫柔體貼，那麼夫妻或是情人之間，

又怎麼會不漸行漸遠漸無聲呢？

所以請記住：

有活力的愛情，是需要適度殷勤灌溉的，

談戀愛，更是不可以偷懶的喔！

有一對情侶，相約下班後去用餐、逛街，

可是女孩因為公司會議而延誤了，

當她冒著雨趕到的時候已經遲到了30多分鐘，

他的男朋友很不高興的說：

「妳每次都這樣，現在我甚麼心情也沒了，我以後再也不會等妳了！」

剎那間，女孩終於決堤崩潰，她心裡想：或許，他們再也沒有未來了！

同樣的在同一個地點，另一對情侶也面臨同樣的處境；

女孩趕到的時候也遲到了半個鐘頭，他的男朋友說：「我想妳一定忙壞了吧！」

接著他為女孩拭去臉上的雨水，並且脫去外套蓋在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流淚了！

但是流過她臉頰的淚卻是溫馨的，你體會到了嗎？

其實愛、恨往往只是在我們的一念之間！

愛不僅要懂得寬容

更要及時關心，

很多事可能只是

在於你心境的轉變罷了！

你懂了嗎？

當有個人愛上你，而你也覺得他不錯。

那並不代表你會選擇他。

你說：

你要找一個你很愛很愛的人，你才會談戀愛。

但是當對方問你：怎樣才算是很愛很愛的時候，

你卻無法回答他，因為你自己也不知道。

沒錯，我們總是以為，

我們會找到一個自己很愛很愛的人。

可是後來，當我們猛然回首，

我們才會發覺自己曾經多麼天真。

假如從來沒有開始，你怎麼知道自己會不會很愛很愛那個人呢？

其實，很愛很愛的感情是要在一起經歷了許多事情之後才會發現的。

或許每個人都希望能夠找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侶，

但是你有沒有想過：在你身邊會不會早已經有人默默對你付出很久了，只是你沒發覺而已呢？

如果你也正在為愛迷惘，或許下面這段話可以給你一些啟示：

愛一個人！

要了解，也要開解；

要道歉，也要道謝；

要認錯，也要改錯；

要體貼，也要體諒；

是接受，而不是忍受；

是寬容，而不是縱容；

是支持，而不是支配；

是慰問，而不是質問；

是傾訴，而不是控訴；

是難忘，而不是遺忘；

是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代;

是為對方默默祈求，而不是向對方諸多要求；

可以浪漫，但不要浪費；可以隨時牽手，但不要隨便分手

如果你都做到了，

即使你不再愛一個人，也只有懷念，而不會懷恨。

你懂得如何去愛了嗎？試試看吧！

2011-01-25T20:49:00.000-08:00

突然有感而发想和朋友们分享一个故事 =)

大约在去年的九月，有个女孩喜欢上了隔壁班的一位男生。这男生和别的男生比起来，并不怎么样，不比别人长得帅，也不比别人来得高。但是，他就是有一种让人无法形容的魅力，深深地吸引了这位女孩。也许他比一般人都多出了两倍的幽默感，拥有一脸无辜的样子，脾气很好，还有他那引人瞩目的八字眉，就这样让这女孩慢慢地开始对他倾慕了。哈哈！

他们俩很巧和的都是来自同一个学会，经常需要一起做事，也因此比一般人多出了些许的相处机会。这男生从来都不懂女孩早已对他有感觉了，或许可以说是这女孩把她对他的感情藏得很好吧，所以男生才不会有所发现。女孩很爱找这男生聊天，闹着玩，在心情低落时会和他分享心事。能够维持这种好朋友的阶段，女孩就已很满足了，并没有想要进一步的发展。

可是，大概过了一个月后，男孩开始不怎么理睬这女生，对她也很冷淡。女孩也不懂到底做错了什么事得罪了他，他对其他人都依旧很热情，就唯独是这女生特别冷淡。过了不久，女孩从朋友的口中得知他喜欢上了一位女生，这时候的她心已经开始碎了。她始终都没有勇气向那男生告白，只能把那感情默默地埋藏在心里面，默默地祝福他。

之后，团体举办了一年一度的假期领袖训年营，他们来到了邦咯岛。在这三天两夜的训练营当中，他们依旧甚少理睬对方，只是偶尔谈上几句，但多数是公事。*可怜的女孩* 当领袖训练营结束以后，女孩以为一切都将回到了原点，但是她万万没有想到这一切才是事情的真正开始。=)

在训练营结束后的这几天，男生频频在网上诉说对一位女生的思念及爱意。这位女生开始对这男生喜欢的对象感兴趣，并在猜测到底是谁。在这同时，女生的一位同班男同学对她也有好感，并写了一首诗献给这女生。这事传到男生那里去了，一开始女生以为是他感到好奇，所以才会问她，因此也没有怀疑什么。

但是，男生的举动开始让这女生怀疑了。她怀疑男生喜欢的对象是她了。但是，女生并没有感到高兴或兴奋这类的，她只是告诉自己是她想太多了，男生怎么会喜欢上她呢，这是不可能的。哈哈！在同一天里，女生的一位学弟告诉她，这位男生是真的喜欢上她了，那并不是错觉！这女生感到好不可思议，她万万也没想到那个人竟然会是她自己。这一切的谜底终于都被揭开了。男生终于鼓起勇气向女生说明一切并表明他对女生的心意。故事的结局就留给各位去猜测及自由想象吧 =）

在爱情的世界里，很难找到互相喜欢的对象！假如你遇到了，就请好好珍惜及疼爱对方吧 =)

2011-01-24T21:47:00.000-08:00

当你

如果有一天我回到從前
回到最原始的我你是否會覺得我不錯
如果有一天我離你遙遠
不能再和你相約你是否會發覺我已經說再見

當你的眼睛瞇著笑當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好你從來不知道想你想你也能成為嗜好
當你說今天的煩惱當你說夜深你睡不著
我想對你說卻害怕都說錯好喜歡你知不知道

如果有一天夢想都實現
回憶都成了永遠你是否還會記得今天
如果有一天我們都發覺 ( 我們都要發覺 )
原來什麼都可以我們是否還會停留在這裡

當你的眼睛瞇著笑當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好你從來不知道想你想你也能成為嗜好
當你說今天的煩惱當你說夜深你睡不著
我想對你說卻害怕都說錯好喜歡你知不知道

也許空虛讓我想得太多也許該回到被窩
夢裡會相遇就毫不猶豫大聲的說我要說
當你的眼睛瞇著笑當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好你從來不知道想你想你也能成為嗜好

啦 ~ ~ ~ 啦 ~ ~ ~
我想對你說卻害怕都說錯好喜歡你知不知道
啦 ~ ~ ~ 啦 ~ ~ ~

2011-01-22T19:34:00.000-08:00

♥

This is what i found. Is really meaningful =)

"I think over the many years of dating and break-ups, if there’s anything I learnt about loving someone and being in a relationship, it’s patience.

It’s not about how sweet you can be, how much gifts you give, or even how much you’re willing to do for your loved one. It’s about how patient and understanding you can be when things aren’t going right, when someone does something that makes you angry, sad, or hurt.

If I think over every single argument I’ve had in the past, and the break ups, most of the time, if only one side could be more patient and understanding, everything could’ve been prevented.

It’s actually really easy to treat someone nicely, it’s easy to do a lot of sweet things for someone, it’s easy to shower someone with love and gifts. But it’s so hard, so hard, to be understanding and patient when things aren’t going the way you want. It took me so many years to try to learn this, and even now I can’t say it’s easy, but I know I’m trying.

In this relationship, I lose in almost every argument I have with my girlfriend. :) Not because I have no sense of principle or opinion. It’s because I think that for almost every argument, it’s not really important who wins, deep inside, most of us all know what’s right and wrong. It’s just at the heat of the moment, we become stubborn, or we let our emotions take over our logic and we argue. In the past, every time I win an argument, after it’s all over, I know deep inside who was right and who was wrong. If you care and love someone, try to just let little meaningless things go, sometimes even let the big things slide… just a piece of my mind :) "

2011-01-19T02:19:00.000-08:00

Hmm, recently being motivated by so many people. First, is a small cute little book which full of meaningful life quote. Upnext, is my friend, vivien loh who had came back from Taiwan few days ago. Then, we have an ex-sam tet boy gave a motivation talk to all of us on this monday. Is like I have been motivated by so many people around me and try to wake me up that I can't be as lazy as last time already, I must work hard! Of course I felt very guilty after listening all this and start to have some new aim in my life. Haha. Ermm, so far I still find that time management is my biggest weakness. haiz! Everday wake up at midnight just to complete my homework will only made me felt sleepu in class the next day and can't concentrate in some lessons. And I also found that my health condition is getting worst and worst recently. Feeling cold easily and like anytime will fall sick. Sigh. Please! I don't wanna fall sick during CNY ar!!! Hahaha.

Seriously I'm feeling very happy and excited that finally my best friend, vivien loh have come back to Ipoh. Miss her so much. She's still the same, sot sot gam, like to bring happiness to people around her! Hahahaha. Having a great time with her, chow, ong and my other friends! Friends around me are slowly being explode to the real world in this society, I do learnt a lot through their stories =) I'm wonder what my life will be after I have graduate from form 6. Hmm =)

2011-01-14T02:13:00.000-08:00

Again, another week had passed. Form 1 orientation programme had come to an end. I was nearly exhausted and real tired =( Faced some problems during this programme was on. Mistakes was found out by teacher advisor, being scolded by her. Haiz! However, it finally end and I'm no longer busy already. Haha. Ermm, tons of homework is waiting for me. I will never get to finish it as teacher kept on giving and giving them non-stopped. Everyday reached home already very tired, homework yao cannot finish. How?? I just don't wish scolded by teacher. So... I almost everyday woke up at 3am to complete them. Everyday like this really will make me faint anytime, and my body machine can't stand with it. See! Life in upper 6 is no joke, is real stress and pressure is all against you! Sometimes I do wonder that why I just don't have a smarter brain, then I would not be so suffer in my academic already. Haha. Still the same old phrase, without working hard, putting in effort, you'll gain nothing =)

I did something stupid and noob just now. Till now I'm so regret about it and I hardly find anyone to talk with. =( Things just can't reverse it once it had happened. sigh. I really feel sorry to you. I'm sorry, seriously =( another week is waiting for me again. hope that in this weekends, I can finish up all my homework. mmm =)

2011 =)

2011-01-06T07:29:00.000-08:00

Time flies past man. One year ended already, people! And here comes the whole new year, 2011 =)
Haha. Ermm, a whole new year, sure have a whole new hope and aim. Well, of course study come the first, as always. Hope I can cope with my academic. Everyone start to seem getting serious when come to upper 6. Is nomore honeymoon for me anymore. Have to study hard and work hard. Can't let others look down on you! STPM is at the end of year, I really wanna achieve my target, all straight A's! I know is tough, but at least I did tried my best before feeling regret. Next, wish I'm having a strong and healthy body. Hahahaha. And one more, keep in my heart =)

The 1st week of school haven't end, but I"m already busy till exhausted. Busy with my homework, revision and of course f1 orientation week. There're so many things need to be prepared and get it done within a week. However as I know, after this activity over, there is no more for me to busy already. Hahahaha.

Recently, people around me seem like getting more n more difficult to stay with or communicate anymore. Human, is really not easy to be understand. Sometimes, you just can't figure it out what is inside his or her brain. They are great actors or actress. What I can say and do is just be myself. no need care for them. Hahaha =D

Share something really meaningful over here. Hee ~
Life is too short, so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly and forgive quickly =)

2010-12-24T19:30:00.000-08:00

Hmm, I wonder how long I have been abandoned this blog. Hahahaha. Well, holidays almost end, happy moment passed really fast. I have came back from my camp since the beginning of december. Throughout this camp, I did learn a lot from my friends and also the campers. We, exco have been busy preparing this camp since 3 months ago if I'm not mistaken. The moment I enjoyed the most is reached pangkor 1 day earlier than the others with my 7 others friends. The day spent together with them is fun and enjoyable. We stayed up late to complete all the games and also busy chit-chatting non-stopped. We slept at almost 2am on that day. Hahaha. The rest of the day we slept not more than 3 hours each day. Is tiring but I do enjoy this camp very much.

Besides, my 2 animal friends who are frog chow and cicak ong came back from aus already! Woohoo~ I'm so happy can meet up with them and hang out together like those good old days. Not only them, shark ling, dragon ooi and janice cheong too! hahahaha. Miss them so much.

This holiday seriously I didn't do my revision much. Everyday kept on watching DVD, on9, and sms. Just hope that I won't left far behind after school reopen. Mmm =) And 1 more thing, hee~ this holiday is truely a lovely wan for me! Hahahaha. I think someone will get it, what I'm trying to say. hee ~ I love wu gui =D

It's bad!

2010-11-04T08:00:00.000-07:00

I have been emo-ing for these few days. I have never been like this before. The feelings is really bad. Seriously, I never worried about my academic all this while but not until form 6. This time really..... Urgh!! Can't really being describe. Is not that I didn't do my revision, I did it. I just can't figure it out where have gone wrongly. This time I really can feel the pressure and at last, I can't stand it anymore! I did cried very badly. But I did felt better after expressing out my feeling. Anyway, thank you to those who did comfort me and give me moral support. Really thank you =) I think this is a very good pengajaran for me! Seriously.

2010-11-01T01:30:00.000-07:00

Results is out. Today only distribute PA and Physics papers. I expect my pa graph session there at least have 5m, as I'm confidence enough that I'll get it correct. Very sad is that when I got back my paper, I was so shocked and stunt there as I only get 1m only out of 15m. I really can't accept the fact that I only get such a low marks. It's just so disappointing. I really down and no mood after all. Once again, my paper failed. I had calculated, if my graph session get full marks, I'll get 60m! People is 60m!!!! Is relatively high!!!! Oh my god! Haiz~ but what I can do now is that aim for next year, is no use for me to continue blame on myself and regret anymore! From now on, everyday I'll do a graph!!!! Hahahahaha. Next is my physics paper, is passed! Now I really not dare to see my others papers marks. I really scared I'll faint away. Lol.

2010-10-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

Yes! Yes! Yes! Exam finally is over. Ok, this time exam i really didnt prepared myself well. I'm so regret that why I didn't start my revision earlier. Although there are just 5 subjects in STPM, but yet there are lots of things need to study. Is totally different from f5. Haiz! My dream to F1 is cracked already. Now what I hope that I still can stay in F2 and didn't failed more than 3 subjects.
I'm supposed to be very happy and excited after I finished my last paper but yet I'm so emo as soon as the paper is end. I really don't know how to do the ques and I almost cried it out when i saw those ques. My mind just gone blank when I saw those ques although I had revisioned them don't know how many times.

Next, a list of activities are waiting for me after exam. First of all, is USST camp and trip, and class trip as well. Every exco is busy preparing the camp and there're lots of works waiting for me to get it done. But yet, I'm totally enjoying it. Hee~

2010-10-19T21:20:00.000-07:00

Exam is near. I'm still blogging here. Ok, i know, I'm not suppose to be here right now. But seriously I have to write it out before I really burst out. I just cant concentrate on my study! I cant find back the study feel which usually with me last time! I really feel panic and scare about it! I really dont wana dropped class. I wana go F1 with shi yuhn! Although the probability is very small, but I still wana give it a try before I really regret! I dont hope to disappoint myself and parents as well! This is really IMPORTANT to me!!!!! Really wana do my best. Last time before exam, I'll absent from school and study at home. But now, I'm actually skipping school and wasting time at home. Is really shameful on me that I dont have enough self discipline! CANNOT!!!!! I must really concentrate on my study and aim to F1 class!!! F1, you must wait for me =) Wahahahaha!

6th form night

2010-10-13T02:52:00.000-07:00

Well, overall is fantastic night! 6th form night is an enjoyable night. My class performance won the 2nd runner-up! We are so happy and surprised for our achievement. All of us are so proud of ourselves! Start from the very first time practicing, many are absent and we have argument as well! We are not that unites like other classes. They had practiced for so many times. I still remembered the first time of rehearsal, only my class didn't rehearsal on day! All the teachers knew about this and came into my class and asked about this. We are so FISH! The, starting that, our class came out with a lot of great ideas and everyone do try their best stayback to practice to make sure we have a good performance on that night! Honestly, I'm very happy seeing this.

Finally the day came! 9th of October 2010! A big day for all of us. This is the very first time I'm actually dancing on the stage. I'm damn nervous! Hahahaha. Our steps are so neat and we do win a lot of cheers from the audience. Especially the surprise we specially brought to all the audiences, which is the 彩炮！we are the only class doing so! So this do make our performane look grand! Hahahaha. I like my class so much now! All of us still very high after the 6th form night! Until now, in class we will still shouting : " 5, 6 , 7, 8 !!! " . haha. Which is the command gave by angeline when she teaches us dancing that time. Hahaha. After all, all of us do like to dance and know how to dance already! Hahaha. That night every of my friends are so leng lui and smart for boys! Hahahaha. Totally have a shocked on it =)

Exam is coming soon. Until now, I had touched nothing! How am I going to digest all the things in less than 2 weeks time? Haiz! Now really have to bangkitkan semangat and start to do my revision! If not, I wont have the chance stay in my beloved class, F2 already!!!!! F2 IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohoo~

2010-10-02T20:02:00.000-07:00

Well, I have been updating my blog once again. Let's see my activities in these few weeks.

- Busy practicing my class 6th form night performance.
- Discussing camp things.
- Helping decorate Mr.Phang's farewell car.
- Studying very hard for my final exam.
- date with denise.
- gossip less in class already compared to last time.

Actually, just these few activities, already made me busy till wana faint. First of all, for the 6th form night, we are busy discussing our performance costume. And finally, our performance have finish practicing. Thumbs up F2! Today after practicing, we all went to Mcd for our lunch. Is an interesting and fantastic outing with F2! all of us have a lot of joys in Mcd. Hahaha.

Next, is USST training camp. There are lots of stuffs need to prepare and discuss. That day, we had a meeting which was the longest ever! Almost 3 hours sitting there just discussing for the 3 days programme list. OMG! But actually is fun and exciting! Is gonna be a memerable camp for me =)

Following up next is my school principal, mr.phang's farewell. The first time such an event I didnt participate myself in. I had ponteng the whole day with my friends. Morning after busy decorate the car, then we all had nothing to do already. Hall already full, no more places for us. So, we all sit in S&E room the whole day. Walao! Sienz dou! Haha. That day, we met Pn.Shan and Pn.Chen as well. Haha. Anyway, I'm here to wish mr.phang happy retirement and all the best in his following days.

Upnext, is my result. Is totally not fair to us as this august test the whole form position involved Bio and Phy class students. Bio paper is much more easier than phy paper, so most of the bio students can have better whole form position. My classmates who range no. 5 in my class, her position in the whole form goes to 70smtg. Can you imagine mine who is 10 more behind her position in the class? I really not dare to know it. So now, after this such a big tamparan, I had decided to study well and also to remain myself in my class next year. I dont wana change class. REALLY! SINCERELY! I'll try my best to score well in the final year exam.

Besides that, many tiny little things also pop-out let me to worry. Haiz! In all, form 6 life is totally interesting and you'll never be dull in school ever! hahahaha =)

My 1st exam in form 6

2010-09-17T02:49:00.000-07:00

Oh my God! I never get SUCH result in my entire school life before! Is so... make me speechless! Ok well, my result all this while consider medium, not very bad nor very good. Just that this time really exceptional! And FAILED this word really never appeared in my testpapers and report card before! I really cant accept that I had FAILED my paper! Eventhough I had failed my paper, surprisingly I seem alright and nothing much to sad about at all! So actually when you had failed your papers, the feeling is like this! haha. And then one more thing, I wont believe to those who said they will ranked the last in class and didnt do their revision during exam at all! Noob fella! Ish. Ok, there is no used for me to blame anyone now and waste time already. There's still left one month before my final exam is on. Therefore, I promised myself will study well and aimed for PASS FOR EVERY PAPER! Just pray hard that I wont dropped class next year and just wana stay in my current class! And luckily my parents didnt scold me or give me any pressure! I suddenly felt very sorry to them! I know I should study hard and score well in my STPM! So that I can get scholarship and get into better university. This is my study aim now! I should plan my timetable well although coco is very important to me as well. Sixth form night is just around the corner. Our class performance not yet finish practising, need to prepare for USST camp. I really hope I can handle all these things well without abandoned anyone. So stay strong and gambateh anjoe liew! Friends, just mentally support me and remember me in your prayer ya =)

2010-09-08T01:39:00.000-07:00

On 6/9/10, we went out celebrate jocky and siew mun's birthday. Had a fun time with them. Lots of funny things happened in between. hahaha. Very lazy to type it out here. Hahaha. Anyway, happy birthday to both of them. ^^

2010-09-07T13:08:00.000-07:00

It seems that I had abandoned my blog for quite a long time. Now I'm blogging again, it takes me many courages to do so as I'm really lazy to update my blog. Haha. Well, let's see. A lot of things happened recently.

- Hang out with ooi when she's back from KL.
- The stupid kolokium thing finally done.
- Exam is on.
- Farewell with mayi.
- Discussion on my class 6th form night performance.
- Friends are slowly falling into love river.
- Like to gossip with friends everyday.
- Busy preparing USST camp.
- Mayi and shark ling stayed at my house and have a nice chat with them.

The above are the only thing which I remembered what had happened recently. Haha. Ermm, exam in F6 is totally different from F4 & F5. There are many many things to study, you have to really understand the concept then only you'll know how to do and give your best shot in the exam. The first time in my life which I had sat for so many examinations, I felt that all my papers will FAILED! This is true people, I didnt bluff. Maybe the passing marks is too high, and we really cant achieve it, 50m is our school passing mark. This is too high already! Haiz! I really not dare to see my papers. next, my best friend, vivien had left us! She went to taiwan to further her study. All of us cried very badly when she's leaving. Same as yan zhang, my another best ubi friend. Both of them are leaving to taiwan! Wish them all the best and I will always remember the best moment we have together and all of them will stayed with me forever! Vivien loh, dont ever forget us! Hahahaha.

Not my day!

2010-08-06T23:41:00.000-07:00

What I can said is that today is really not my day!
Everything is in a mess!
I'm too over-confident and thought is an easy job not till the problems all pop-out and need me to settled it in a short time!
I kept on blaiming myself although my friends kept telling me is not my fault!
I really felt very guilty and sorry!
I promised myself I wont let this kind of thing happened anymore!
Besides, I cant stand with people who are emotional and have "double-face"!
Luckily I do wake up from that before I'm continued being trapped by such person!
So now I'm totally agree with the quotion : " DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER! "
And then, I just wana tell my friend : " Sorry for making you so sad and I never thought that you'll that sad when I'm making such decision! Just want you to know that I never change, I'm still the anjoe who you know last time! Just that now we dont have the time like last time crapped together, and sit down chat freely and laugh out loud without caring how others look upon us! I know we really hard to find a time sit down and chat with each other, but please believe me that I never leave you out and everytime do miss you! You have to know that you are always my best best best buddy ever! So please understand my condition! "
My tears had burst out when I answering a call from denise just now!
All my stress which I had pilled up sekali gus all burst out and plus when I heard what she told me in the phone!
After bursting out, I felt relieved and more better now!
And thank you to all my friends who care for me and comfort me!
I felt very warm! ^^

USST Farewell

2010-07-31T00:35:00.000-07:00

Lower 6 excos

the souvenirs

Usst excos

yen yee and me

Today is Usst farewell. We're organising a farewell party for the F5 and Upper 6 seniors at Sin May's house. Early in the morning, sze yau, kch, siew mun and I went to have breakfast together. Then, we go and picked up sin may and meet wai kok, wai yin, and yen yee at tesco, to buy the things we need tonight! We are going to have BBQ and steamboat together! So, all of us have a lot of fun over there and I really enjoyed "shopping" with them! Then, we went to have lunch at Woolley and Jocky is joining us this round! Haha! Afterthat, wai yin send sin may and jocky to tt while the rest followed my car continued go and buy things!

Around 4.30pm, siew mun come and fetch me! It was raining so heavily till we are all wet! All of us busy preparing the food and helped out here and there! We took quite a number of pictures in sin may's room and played with teletubies! Woohoo! Finally, ard 7pm, the seniors came! All of them were very friendly and we do chat a lot with the f5! The food we prepared actually not enough so wai yin, sze yau, jie min and I went out and bought KFC and some noodles for ourselves! Haha!

Around 9pm, we give out the souvenirs to the seniors took a group photo before the farewell party ended! So left only we, lower 6 and F4 busy cleaned up the mess and another surprise was prepared for yen yee! Actually we also prepared a souvenir to yen yee as she had left usst and went to further her study at KL. We all stand around yen yee share our thought and feelings about her leaving to her! Lastly, sze yau represent us gave the souvenir to her and actually he did cried non-stopped afterthat! The first time I saw a boy cry till so geng and more serious than a girl crying! Haha! Actually not only him, all of us really tak berat hati yen yee leaving us! But we still have to move on no matter how or what happened!

That night we really have a lot of fun and through this event, our relationships have become closer! I really like my society much and USST is the best! Woohoo~

2010-07-28T18:44:00.000-07:00

I have learned how to adapt myself well when people talking gossips about you or spreading fake news about you and others! Whenever you are walking with a different gender person or recently kept on finding that person doing work, people will start to whisper behind you or start saying nonsense things! Although you know they are just joking, but sometimes really feel unhappy cause they say you have relation with a person you dont like at all! Haha! But now I have get use to it already! My friends around me like to fool around and joke a lots! So sometimes I do enjoy staying with them! Crap things which can make you laugh the whole day! Haha!

Somehow there are still have people who will do something that you are not agree with them at all! There are some people who will do something that really disgusting! Cant stand with such person at all! I'm here to announce that I'll study super super hard so that can compete with that person and make that person disappeared from that class next year! Hahahaha!

2010-07-26T17:50:00.000-07:00

There are lot and lot of things to share in my blog! Just that I dont know where to start from! Recently is super lazy update my blog plus my pc kena virus, and just got back! What I can say is I like to go to school and busy doing my koko things! And love is in the air around the school! Friends are leaving 1 by 1, so sick of it now! Really cant afford to miss my friend! Haiz! Exam is coming! Farewell coming 1 by 1! Haha! That's all! Will not update for a time I think, cause need to prepare for my exam and time really not enough to use! Miss you guys^^

Great day^^

2010-07-10T23:27:00.000-07:00

This morning, Sam Tet is having Hari Anugerah! And I'm one of the emcee of the day! Haha! I had to wear the prefect blazer and skirt for the day! I'm super nervous as this is the 1st time I'm being an emcee! All the students wearing so formal! And of course many leng zai tim! Haha! Saw many ex- seniors over der like may wen pl and wang xin yi pl! Haha! miss them so much! Overall, I'm quite satisfied with my performance although there are some cacat la! Haha! After the majlis end, is our WILDCHIMPZ turn to perform! Their performance is nice man! It make me reflect back the time when ong and chow are here! Miss wildchimpz a lot seriously! Haha!

At night, our class having a BBQ celebration of inter-class comp at yee xin's hse! All of us kept on eating, and in the end, didnt take dou any pictures! Haha! Hou xiu leh! Then, we all watched ghost movie together! We switch off all the lamps and even the door curtain so that have the scary atmosphere! Haha! Is fun to have a class like this! Whenever we have any gethering, sure all of us will attend and this make our relationship closer! I think so far non of the class have gathering like our class! And the warm feeling cant find in other class! I like my class more and more now! Hee!

Inter-class comp

2010-07-06T16:44:00.000-07:00

my teammates

From 29/6 till 2/7, sixth form is organising an inter-class comp for all lower six classes. First day, having basketball comp and badminton man and women single. I didnt watch the badminton match anywhere! Haha! Is fanstatic the basketball match! OMG! First time only knew that basketball match is so interesting! I was having duty on that day, so seeing the players trying their very best to shoot the ball and help their team to get marks, is so...i duno how to explain! Ah, is great teamwork! In all, I like to watch it very much!

Follow up the next day is netball comp! Our class had shown great teamwork and we had made it into the final! Great job, gals!

The next day, I took part in the football match! Is so tiring people, and I really kindly advice u all taht if you dont have good stamina, please! Dont involve urself in football match! Is fun to play but really make you exhausted after that! Haha!

Finally, the last day of inter-class comp! Those who make it into the final have to stay back after school! And we all seem very nervous! We had lost to B4 in the netball match in the end, but through this match, our relationship had became closer! I think the aim of this match had achieved in my class!

And at the end, our class had won the OVERALL CHAMPION among lower six classes and we got a big hamper! Haha! I'm so proud of L6F2 now! Haha! like my class very much^^

USST AGM

2010-07-05T19:12:00.000-07:00

Well, this is the first AGM I had attented in Sam Tet for my society which is USST! It was so grand and serious as all the presidents of all the societies in Sam Tet had to attend this koko meeting which held once a month! The koko teacher and our teacher advisors all were present in this meeting! All the new excos were so nervous as there will be many pairs of eyes watching at us! Haha! Anyway, it is so formal and why AMC didnt have this kind of society and such meeting where all the presidents gather together once a month, so that we can know more about other society! Being one of the exco of USST make me feel so proud! This society is the leader of all the societies in Sam Tet! And we are helping the school to take care all the societies! Whenever which society facing problem, they will come and seek help from us! So, can say that we are quite busy as there are only 23 of us in USST! I like to stay and work with my excos as all of us are very shot and have great leadership! All also can do works! Hope that all of us can work together without quarelling and make the society better as we are the role model of other societies! Oh ya, forget to tell you all! I'm the main secretary in USST! Hee~ Will be super busy then!

What a SPECIAL present!

2010-06-21T18:49:00.000-07:00

I received a really UNIQUE, SPECIAL, & COLOURFUL birthday present from mae yin, yee xin, and xin ying! At 1st, I'm quite happy when I received the present from mae yin this morning because the present quite large! Haha~ Afterthat, they asked me to wrap off the present in class see whether i like the present ant! The present was rap by many newspapers! I have taken almost 15 mins to wrap off the present! The present become smaller and smaller when I wrap off the papers 1 by 1! I'm so curious what's the present is now! Then, I can feel that it is a rectangular steel box! But I still cant guess what is it! Haha~ After all when I finally finish wrap it off, OMG!!!!! this is such a big joke from them! Just guess what is it la u guys! Haha~ Anyway, really thank you for their present! Haha~

My 1st duty in sam tet

2010-06-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

the only girls in usst! hee~

Sam tet chinese orkestra is having a concert in school 2night! And we, usst new exco have to duty on that night! Yen yee and I pair up and duty together! We have to give out the booklets to all the audience! whereas the rest exco have to check the tickets, guide the audience to the school hall and lead them to their places! We are having a lot of fun that night! While the concert started, we didnt watch it, indeed we are laughing and joking behind the hall! Haha~ All of us actually can play till very shot wan! Haha~ Like to work with all the USST exco now=)

2nd celebration

2010-06-18T23:45:00.000-07:00

Well, 2day went to MP celebrate my birthday with my classmates! Having a lot of fun with them and they are so nice! I received a pencil-case, photo frame, key chain and an angel from them! Really thank you to them! Hope that next time we still have chance celebrate other classmates's birthday together like me! Like L6F2 now!!! Weehee~

My Big Day

2010-06-17T23:17:00.000-07:00

Yeah everyone! Finally Anjoe Liew is 18!!!! Hahahahahaha~ Obviously this big day I'm gonna celebrate with my bestiexxx!! Hee~ Ling has came back from KL, so she is celebrating with me! Whee~ Denise, Jie min, yee chee, kah yan, mayi, shi yuhn, ling n hong ing are celebrating with me! Still very sad that joanne, ayu, jie ean and laura cant join us! Anyway, we have a lot of fun 2day! First of all, we went to watch 'Karate Kids"! This movie is awesome people, must go and catch it up in cinema! Afterthat, we went to D.R.Park! Haha! Seriously we are having a lot fun and found out a lot of interesting things in this park! Haha! We are like having a photo session in this beautiful park and people around us just keep on watching us! This is so weird! Later, we went to "My Point" to have our dinner! I love the cake very much frenz! Its the most special cake that I ever had! I'm celebrating with SUJU leh! And I even eaten my "Ryeowook"! Haha~

Besides, I received many wished from my friends through sms and fb! Thank you very much everyone! Especially cicak ong and frog chow! I have received the msg! This year I have receives a BIG present from my parents! Thank you mama and daddy! Hee~ I really enjoying my day and will always remember that I have a great and memorable 18th birthday! =)

2010-06-06T23:43:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I do agree that when friends are not in the same class with you, no matter how close are you with them, there're sure have slightly changes! I'm experiencing this right now! Dont ask me who's the person is, I just wana voice out here and just forget this rubbish in my mind! Haha~ When we are not in the same class, we dont have much time meet each other and didnt talk much like those days! Sometimes when I saw you can chat non-stopped with your friends who I don't know, I felt that that person is only your friend, while I just standing beside there and cant mix in at all! Is sad actually, but when I think the other way round, if now I'm talking with my friend who you don't know, I think you'll have the same feeling and thought as me! I cant share my feelings with you when I'm having problems sometimes! And now, there is someone who become more closer to me compare to you! Maybe this is what I have to gone through when we're not arranged in the same class! I have to accept this fact! Besides, love is in the air around the school! I saw many couples in school nowadays! Haha~ Not only this, many people are getting into this kind of relationship when we are in this mix school! So sometimes really have advantages and disadvantages studying in a boy-girl school! But anyway, I like my class and school very much now! Everyday I wake up, I'm very excited to go to school now! Hee~ And my activities all starting already! All activities from now onward on non-stopped! Although is quite busy, but I'm enjoying my life very much now! Whenever people asked me f6 life good or not or will it very tense, I'll tell them loudly:" I like f6 and enjoying my life very much!" I have no regret entering f6! Hahahaha~

Adapt my new life nw!

2010-05-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

Times fly people! I have went for school 2 weeks adi! I have suit myself in this new school and environment, gets to know my classmates well and mix around! I have started my tuition for chemistry and maths so far! Physics not yet started! For my koko, so far only went for USST interview! And hope that I can become 1 of the exco la! Teachers who are teaching my class some are experienced, while some of them is still new in teaching f6 subject!

Anyway, there are 3 new students change to our class! One of them is yuen sun! The other 2 are boys! One of them All of us knt tahan him! When teacher telling us all those politic "stories", he is there copying down all in his textpad! OMG! Even our teacher also laughed non-stopped when she saw him doing so! Hahahaha~ He really give all of us a shock lo! Hahahaha~

I start ti like my new school now and jokes with my classmates! At the samt time, I also miss 5s8 a lot a lot! Miss the time all the gals laughed loudly in class and doing silly things! Hahaha~

celebrating teacher's day at sam tet

2010-05-17T13:59:00.000-07:00

This is my 1st time celebrating teacher's day in sam tet.
At first, the perfect told us that we, lower six cannot enter the hall, have to sit at the basketball court.
We all like " WHAT"....
Afterthat, all of us are allow to enter the hall as many students are absent today, so there are a lot of empty space in the hall. Haha~
Like normal assembly, need to sing "Negaraku", Perak state's song, school song, prayed then ikrar.
I had forgotten the school song lyrics, haha~
What I remember is the first four lines only.
Followed by those speeches.
No presentation from students, just a simple slideshow made by unit kaunseling den bimbingan!
The teachers having competitons the whole day like bowling comp, badminton comp, basketball comp and football comp. Haha~
This is the only different thing compare to my previous school.
Then, the students are very free the whole day.
All of us walk here and there.
I like vivien's class suasana, very noisy like last time s8 class.
Totally different from my class, all of them very quiet, sit at own place doing t.t homework or studying! Gosh..this is so terrible!
There is one thing even more ridiculous happened today!
Denise told me that her classmates,Matthew and others go out buy Mcd for those who want to eat. OMG!
Then after Matthew came back, he told me that actually teacher's day in their school is consider a no school rules day! OMG! what is this...haha~
After recess, vivien they all came my class practice their songs!
Suddenly attracted many people came to my class tim! Haha~
We all talked and laughed in my class the whole morning!
Suddenly Mr.Phang came into our class and talked to us!
Just like what Pn.Chen always did in AMC last time! Haha~
Before 12.30pm, we all dismissed already!
That's the end of the day.
Haha~ Sam tet really Sam tet!
Sometimes really makes me speechless! Haha~

Settle down

2010-05-14T16:12:00.000-07:00

Finally we have arranged class! I have been arranged to L6F2.
Same class with kee yin, yin chi, yee xin, lily and many more.
In my class, majority are girls.
12 girls, 8 boys. Haha~
I sit with kee yin.
Chong yee xin has been selected as our class rep, while jan bong and me is the assistant class rep.
I dont know why so few people in class also need to have 3 monitors lo. Haha~
After 2 days, finally today our class become more harmony.
I mean no more only girl gang and boys gang in our class already.
All of us mix together because of the kolokium. Haha~
All of us busy of choosing either join in PA or MUET group. Haha~
Finally settle down.
Odd number students do MUET, while the even number students do PA. Haha~
And I'm in the PA group. Luckily!
This is because the MUET title is really really hard and somemore need to present in eng.
That's why all the boys keep on chosing to join the PA group. Haha~
In the end, my group have 6 boys and 4 girls only.
All of us sat together and discuss the title.
Actually didnt discuss much as we all haven think of anything.
Let's see what will happen between us when discussion is on la. Haha~
Oh ya, today I did attend the MKT meeting.
Walao~ I never thought that MKT in sam tet is so serious.
I mean there will be having meeting once in a month and somemore need to organise a farewell party for the upper 6 class rep wor.
We didnt know them but yet still need to organise for them. Haha~
Is weird. Haha~
Besides, there are many rules that a class rep need to follow.
Like if u didnt attend meeting for 3 times, you will receive a warning letter from MKT and you cant be a class rep anymore.
Fuyoh..this is serious man! Haha~
I think AMC MKT should have this kind of rules and try to make the monitors more active in school. Haha~
Anyway, yee xin and I talked non-stop when the meeting is on and both of us keep on laughing or joking in the class. Is fun to work with yee xin=)

2nd day of f6 orientation

2010-05-11T14:23:00.000-07:00

Today is my 2nd days of orientation.
Today we had a station games organised by the sixth form committees.
All of us required to wear track bottom and sixth form t-shirt.
For those who dont have like me, need to wear amc clubs or pj-t.
All of us are given a paper which is different in colour.
Then, find your group members according to the colour.
My paper is red in colour.
I had found my group members, and we had to formed back that puzzle according to the shape of the paper. Haha~
My group name is Chanel. There are total of 17 members in my group.
I same group with seem bee, bing kit, richard, mattew and others.
My group members all are very funny and do cooperate when the station games started.
I had knew some new friends.
I had a good time with my group members.
I start to dont have that "anti-boys" feeling already.
Afterthat, we went to recess.
We continue with the voting of nomination of sixth form new committees.
All of them have to introduce them b4 we start voting them.
The boys are very funny and some of them are kinda over-estimate themselves.
Finally, last session end with a disciplin teacher told us about the school rules once again.
We had delay our dismiss for about 15 mins.
The first two days we dismiss at 12.30pm.
Tomorrow we are gonna dismiss at 2pm. So late man!
And tomorrow will locate our own class adi.
Cant wait to have my own class adi. Haha~

F6 life

2010-05-10T22:46:00.000-07:00

Today is my 1st day of f6 school life started.
Finally, after waiting around 4 months, my school is started.
Early in the morning, when my alarm clock sound, I cant wake up.
Till my sis called me and waked me up. Haha~
7am reached school.
Is weird when I'm walking alone into that school.
Anyway, I met many s8 friends and amc girls there.
Around 7.20am, the prefects need all of us line up and there will be assembly that morning.
We sat at the basketball court while the f3-f5 students sat inside the hall.
Actually, we didnt get what the teachers are trying to give in their speech during the assembly as we all sat outside and dont know what is going on inside the hall. Funny right?? Haha~
The 1st time I sat for an assembly for more than 1 hour. Even our school assembly also not so long! Is boring people!
After the assembly end, we all went into the hall to pay money for the f6 orientation things.
I didnt bring it so didnt get my sixth form t-shirt.
After all the payment, the 6th form committees give us an introduction of sam tet school.
Then, the headmaster of sam tet gave us a speech!
He keep on helped us "洗脑", told us study f6 is a right choice and this school have many good f6 teachers teached us.
Afterthat, another teacher turn, who is our form 6 pk hem.
She briefly told us about the subject that we are going to take.
Then we need to decide which class we are going study, either bio or phy.
Most of the girls chosing bio, but i choose to study in physics class.
Finally we can recess. Walao~ the food sold by this school is so expensive!
I only ate two sandwhiches jao cost me RM1.60, in fact our school sold the same food only cost RM1.30.
Continue our orientation by briefing us the school rules.
Then all the girls move on to the lecture hall to listen about the school rules and what can/cannot do by male and female.
Went back to the hall and continue with normination of the sixth form committees.
The person forces us to nominate 6 girls and 6 boys in 15 mins.
If not, we cannot dismiss.
The boys are so noisy and high indeed when the nomination is on.
Girls over here very cooperate and had nominated 7 persons in the end.
That's the end of my 1st day in sam tet.
At first, I dont feel like studying in this school.
But after today, I start to like this school and hope to come this school everyday! Haha~
I hope I have a memorable f6 life in this school.^^

2010-05-07T22:33:00.000-07:00

Today, mayi, shark ling and I hang out together.
Again, ling be our driver.
She picked us up then only we went to parade.
We chit-chat non-stopped in the car. Haha~
We had our lunch at Kopitiam.
Then, went to popular buy our school things.
We met sok yan and yi-lin there.
Sok yan in heading to matric at johor while mok having her sem-break now.
Then, we walked ard parade and saw many sam tet boys lepak there after school.
Its so annoying!
After school should go home, why still wana hang ard parade somemore with ur school uniform!
I have this feeling because I'll be studying at sam tet two more days.
I dont like that.
Start to dont like that school now. Ish~
At 1st, we planned to go Mcd eat ice-cream.
But suddenly I have feeling that it will be going to rain soon.
So ask ling send me home 1st while she and mayi continue hang out themselves.
Then suddenly mayi suggest go my hse .
In the end, both of them go my house.
We on9 and chat the whole afternoon. Haha~
The end~ Haha

Farewell with ling

2010-05-03T20:35:00.000-07:00

This morning I wake up more early to print out the f6 surat tawaran.
As denise told me that the letter need to certify by school also, so ma fan!
Then after print it out, confirm that the letter really need to certify by school.
I quickly called mayi and told her about it.
So finally decide asked ling send us back to school before hang out at JJ.
3 of us talked non-stop in the car and almost miss the road. Haha~
Then we went to JJ have our lunch.
We have our lunch at secret recipe.
OMG~~the cake is so nice! Haha~
Yee chee and me eat non-stop. Haha~
Then, we went to sing k.
Denise joined us later.
When we sing till half-way, suddenly denise show me the super junior poster.
Both of us almost crazy when see the poster.
Then we take pictures with the poster.
Then, vivien keep on snap the poster non-stop.
Suddenly, become a photo session in the room.
Vivien even didnt sing in the end just to take th poster pic. Haha~
afterthat, we went to watch “叶问2"
Is nice this movie.
Must go to watch it if have chance people.
Highly recommended to all of u. Haha~
Lastly to my shark ling, all the best in your future and do take good care of urself.
Will hang out with you when u're back as mayi and I still in Ipoh. Haha~
Gona miss u frenz! Luv ya^^

2010-05-02T20:29:00.000-07:00

Today went to buy my f6 uniform.
When I wear the whole set of uniform, I suddenly felt that I had grow up to become a more mature girl or student already. Haha~
I buy 2 sets of uniform and a new shoes.
Cant wait my f6 school started.
And ya, I also decide study in physics class.
But I dont think I have many friends study in physics class lo. Haha~
Anyway, I still can hang on with my friends during recess time or cocuriculum session if we are joining the same society la. Haha~

2010-05-01T20:14:00.000-07:00

Today is labour day.
It seem that I can wake up more late compare to those working days.
But....my mum 8am jao come into my room and shout at me that :" IPTA list 今天出啊！"
that time my sis and I think that is just a dream, so didnt bother my mum. haha~
But my mum insist want both of us wake up that time go out have breakfast that morning.
So how, both of us mai wake up lo.
The IPTA list 12noon only announce.
By the way, too many people log in to the website at the same time.
So I cant check it.
Therefore, I check through sms.
I 12smtg send it, 2 smtg only receive the reply.
So people...I failed to get in once again!
At that moment, I really 心淡了.
So I decide 定下心来 study f6.
Because I also think that the matric rayuan I wont get it also as the chance to get in really really small. Haha~
That time I felt very happy when I make a decision to study f6. Duno why.
I think maybe is after waiting such a long time of reply, I finally have a school to study. Haha~
So people, see u guys in sam tet ya!
That days I also went to get my奖励金 offer by 韩江公会.
I get RM110 all together.
At night went to celebrate my brother's birthday at Yeolde English.
So in all, my day is totally interesting! Haha~

Gonna miss the kids

2010-04-30T19:43:00.000-07:00

Finally today is my last day of work.
Even is last day, the kids still wana gek me. Haiz~
When I saw their testpaper, I was like "WAT!!"
I had teached them all those things before exam, and yet they are dare to forget all of them and get such a low marks for me.
Anyway, I'm relieve that luckily today is my last day, if not they will get me till "大颈包"!!
Haha~
Let's see what I did everyday when I'm working.
I look after those Std.1 kids.
I wake up 6.40am everyday.
7.30am follow my mum go her nursery.
Then, when my children had came, I'll checked their school homework.
If they not yet finish, they'll had to finish it there.
Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I'll having tuition class with them.
Sometimes the kids not yet finish their homework, but yao need to tuition...
that time I'll rush with them to make sure that they really finish every of their homework.
Besides, I'll have to make sure that everyday they have study their spelling, ejaan or 听写.
Because some of the parents will ask when their kids get "0" marks for their spelling or ejaan.
That time they'll point the arrow to me that why I didnt check for that.
At 11pm, I'll have to arrange the foods for the kids of 3-6 years and the daycare children as well.
The 3-6 years kids will take turn to have their baths.
Afterthat, they will have their lunch.
Then, after busy 服侍 them, I'll have my lunch.
At 12pm, the full-day children( 3-6 years ) will have to do their homework.
Every teacher look after 3-4 kids.
This is the session I like the most everyday. Hee~
because they're so cute and. Haha~
By 1pm, I had finish my work then go home.
Maybe some of you think that my work seem like very easy...
But not when u experience it yourself. haha~
Anyway, I'm gonna miss those kids.
By the way, this year my mum is organising a sports day.
That time I'll go back helping my mum and visit those kids as well. =)

2010-04-23T19:03:00.000-07:00

Is sad that when sawing all my friends leaving one by one to further their study either in local or overseas..
like frog chow, cicak ong, janice, dragon ooi, foo, shueh cheng, joanne, even shi yuhn oso leaving..
later shark ling is leaving soon..
in ipoh, only leave few of us..
really tak berat hati when u noe that ur close frenz is leaving..
while i'm still here doing nothing..
reply also duno when can I get it...
i'll go and study f6 for a few weeks before I get my matric reply..
I just scared by the time i like the environment of f6, suddenly I get the letter from matric..
you know, it will be super confuse that time..
haha~
now my f6 uniform is borrowed from my cousin de..
the books I jao duno how to settle it la...
btw, lets see what will happen to me la..haha~
now i'm watching " Oh My Lady ", " Hello Baby " by Shinee and " 痞子英雄 "
nice man all these show and drama..
bt load in pc still need some time..
really hope that I can finish watchin it b4 my school starts..haha~

Released..phew~

2010-04-21T18:51:00.000-07:00

Today I went back school with mayi..
Is a sudden decision..
as she also need to certify some doc, same as me..
so we went back together..
We went to see the new koko teacher..
she's very friendly and talkative..
she shared with us a lot of things and all is abt our future..
she's not as bad as my sis told me lo..
maybe she just still very weak in the arrangement of our school coco..haha~
then, we saw there's a book fair in new hall
we went in to have a look..
btw, ntg suitable for both of us..haha~
I accompanied mayi to staffroom..
she wants to find miss yao..
I did chat with Cik Zakiah and Miss Choy for awhile..
they're still as nice as last time..
after settled all the thing, we went to canteen and buy wedges to eat..
walao~ very miss the wedges leh..
which is one of Ong's favourite food in canteen last time..
haha~
finally, I had settled all the rayuan thing which need for matric..
I really wana say a big thank you to my parents and hui qian as well..
actually all the things I need for the rayuan is very little and simple onli..
so i'm glad that I didnt follow my parent's advice..
if not, i'll regret! haha~
now still waiting the IPTA reply..
if cant get in, then i'll go and study f6 while waiting the reply from matric..

2010-04-20T13:35:00.000-07:00

Yes..No...Yes..No..ARGHH!!!!!! super 烦 nw.
Ystd there's a new about MCA people helping student who didnt get in matric like me.
But then, need to prepared many documents for them to help us make rayuan.
Its really troublesome as if I really wana get help from them, I need to go back school certify many things like parents's salary resit, even IC also need to certify wor!
Actually from the moment I know I didnt get in matric, I dont plan to make any rayuan.
All this is my parent's idea.
Especially my mum. haiz~
Actually I think the god didnt let me get in matric is because there's something more better offer for me in my future.
But then I cant failed my parents' by saying no!
So everything just 顺他们的意，顺其自然吧！
是你的就是你的，不是就不是！
无论你多努力，结果还是一样的！

2010-04-19T22:23:00.000-07:00

Saturday, hang out with Jan. She's back from Kl. We went to have breakfast together, then watch "初恋红豆冰". Jan shared with us her life in Kl, it's interesting and she did changed. Changed to a person who talk louder than usual! Haha~ Everytime she talked, people around us will take a look at us. Haha~ Although the time we spent together is not long, but still we have a good time either in her car, during our breakfast or movie.

Sunday, I didnt go anywhere. Stay at home watch tv.

Monday, went to penang. My trip to penang is just eat onli. Haha~ morning, I ate 多利鱼粉 at stadium, lunch-penanag laksa, 炒馃条 and cendol! Oh, the cendol is NICE!! I like it very much. Dinner, went to eat seafood. Its delicious. Hee~ See, my whole trip is just eat onli. Haha~

i didnt get it

2010-04-16T12:02:00.000-07:00

Finally the matric list is out today. Early in the morning, my mum asked me to check it through sms. But then, i said is too expensive to check through sms and somemore we only can start checking from 8.30am. So, my mum asked me send it through my dad's hp. I key in everything in my dad's hp and asked my dad check it for me.

About 9am, my mum come and tell me that I didnt get it. At that moment, I was liked:" oh, is ok I didnt get it!" But still got abit sad la. Then, I received msg from sok yan. She asked me get it ant, she get it, but she's being arranged to Johor. I asked her check for me on9 once again, as I still didnt believe that i didnt get in. After 5 mins, sok yan told me that I really didnt get in. At that time, I really feel disapponted. When i'm back from work, I check myself once again. I still believe there's some hope. This time really true! I see it with my own eyes. I really didnt get it. Is sad and disappointment filled with me once again.

I also dont know what happen to me that time, I just cant control my tears when my dad called me whether I really didnt get in matric. Although last time i'm thinking of study f6, give up matric if i really get in, but now when I knew that I didnt get in, I dont kow I'll be that sad. Anyway, I have make rayuan since my condition is good enough to allow me make rayuan! on 24th of may, i'll only noe the answer. By that time, f6 also start school already. This time I really not dare to check again, I really scare the answer will disapointed me once again. Now I'm still waiting IPTA, I really hope I can get it. When my parents know that I didnt get in, they pretend like nothing, just act relax in front of me. I know they also feel dissapointed. I know they cant afford me study private colllege not even mention go overseas. So, I really hope that I can get in those I have applied and lighten their burden. May all the lucks come come to me now! I really dont have the heart to study f6, but if I really that bad luck, both also cant get in, then f6 is my last choice.

Hari Anugerah

2010-04-09T18:36:00.000-07:00

Today is my school Hari Anugerah. Reached school by 9 smtg. Suddenly Miss Teh walked to us and told mayi tat her dress is too short! Since she's nt wearing the proper entire, so she's nt allow to attend the function unless she changed her dress. Luckily yin chi did brought one extra baju kurung, so k borrow vivien changed it. Haha~

The whole majlis is so bored plus hot in the hall. We all didnt sit according to our place, finally at last teacher scolded us to sit back our own place. Haha~ Suddenly, I received mayi's sms said that ling's grandma suddenly passed away, so she cant hang out with us later. Both of us keep on finding transport to meet denise and ooi who are waiting us at JJ. Finally, vivien's mum send us der.

We went to sing k den give vivien's a surprise birthday celebration. We had a lot of fun inside the k-room. Haha~ Oh ya, I did received RM40 popular voucher and a very SPECIAL present today. Thank you^^

2010-04-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

外头超热的。本人刚扫墓归来，现在身心超累的。今天一大早就和家人出门去了。去了怡保，就去chemor & Sg.siput. 从8 点多拜到12点多。其间，和亲戚聊了很多，谈到关于深学的事。刚巧，我堂哥也回来了，谈了很多。我发现啊，如今的清明节不只是祭拜这么简单了，很多户人家都会放鞭炮大事庆祝一番。我发现我们家非常重视这个节日，每个小细节都不会漏掉。准备给祖先的贡品也不马虎，咱们家只是买烧鸡，烧鸭都买了不少钱。每个祖先一只鸡，和一盒烧肉或烧鸭，一共拜了5位祖先，大家自己算一下那笔数目吧！哈哈~ 对我而言，清明节是个不可忽视的华人节日，非常重要。大家也希望倘若日后我们去世后，也得到后人的祭拜吧！

2010-04-04T23:16:00.000-07:00

These few weeks keep on hang out with my frenz. Go out till me myself oso feel like dun wana go out adi, just wana stay at home. Haha~ Firstly, ling called me out watch movie on saturday night, but I had rejected her. Nt more den 10 mins, foo jao sms me. She asked me go out celebrate kee yin's burfday together. This one I have no reason reject it, so I have to go. That day we go and sing k at JJ. 5 of us enjoying in the k-room.

Then, this saturday, me, denise n kah yan hang out to celebrate Eunhyuk's burfday. Haha~ We met ooi der den she joined us 4 lunch onli jao went off adi. That denise, bought jor SS2 cd, summore kah yan bought her the premium live in japan dvd. Jealous sei me. Luckily she said wull burn the cd for me. hee~ Then, 3 of us bought jor e-pop magazine cz dis month e-pop hv SJ concert news and photos. We watched 2 movies on the same day. Alice in wonderland & future ex-cop. Is fun the whole day. Haha~
Monday need to go and 扫墓 with my family den friday have to go bec school for Hari Anugerah. Aftertat the function, plan to hang out with frenz. See, i keep on hang out these days. Haha~ Really tired!

Tonight is gona be a good night^^

2010-03-24T18:13:00.000-07:00

Alright, this is my 1st time in my life go and watch my idol concert. Is totally FUN, INTERESTING, MARVELLOUS, BRAVO and MEMORABLE. Till now, I just cant believe that I had went to their concert before. Haha~ Oh ya, u guys must be asking which artist concert that I had been for. Hee~ Ok, they are the world largest artist group..*tatran*...SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!!!!!!!

Although dis time only 10 of them cuming, but yet they had made all the E.L.F crazy for them. They are so handsome, and their dance is so powerful. If next time u plan to go their concert, pls make sure u hv enuf energy high with them, if nt, i guarantee u'll pengsan in the stadium. Haha~ The atmosphere in the stadium is so high and the whole stadium is sapphire blue in colour. The stage is so grand and the light effect is so geng! I'm very lucky cz just sit beside ruo huai and her gang. That night, we all keep shouting non-stop and extremely high! When I saw ryeowook, khuhyun, lee-teuk, eun-hyuk and dong-hae, almost faint! first time saw them with my real eyes and they are very very leng zai and yeng! really knt tahan them. haha~ That whole night u really din hv the chance sit down drink water cz their performance non-stopped and is so HIGH!! really UN-BE-LIE-VABLE that I had came back from their concert. But yet I'm very regret that why I din buy the most expensive ticket cz act my place cant really saw their face. So nw, will start to save money and buy the rock area if hv d chance go again.

When i'm back from their concert, I keep on searching in you-tube and playback the show on that night. I'm in poison adi. I wont forget the night 20/3/10 high with SJ and now the memory is still very fresh in my mind. Haha~ Really love them very much. Sarangheyo SJ!!!

*my parents duno I had went to their concert, every1 who saw and read this post, pls help me keep it as a secret! Thank you!!

My KL Trip

2010-03-22T21:14:00.000-07:00

Finally i'm bec from kl. This trip to KL is totally SYOK! There are total 5 of us went to Kl. Hui Qian, Shi Yuhn, Mayi, Shark ling and me. We went der for 3 days 2 nitez. V stayed at ling's aunt apartment.

The 1st day when we reached kl central, we nid to take the rapid kl den go to Bukti Jalil onli k meet wif ling's parents. We had asked so many ppl on our way just to reach Bukit Jalil. Haha~ Almost 1 hours, onli we are safe to arrive Bukit Jalil. Phew~~ Tat nitez, v're too tired, so din go anyway! Just go to a very nice place had our dinner. So actually tat restaurant many artists did went der b4. And tat place is oso 1 of the place where 8tv CNY album take their MV der! woohoo~ Aftertat, v went hom to pack our things for 2mrw.

2nd day, v wake up at 7.30am. Den, go and pass smtg 4 sze wan, shun bian fetch miao and her sis onli v go and had our breakfast. V r act heading to Sunway Lagoon. Woohoo~ Is totally fun in it. We get cheaper tickets as ling's aunt have frenz works in it. Hee~ We almost played all d games in it and just din go to extreme park. At nitez, they go and watched Alice In The Wonderland with 3D motion. While me go other places. Hee~

3rd day, every1 is extremely tired adi. No more energy to walk even v went to shopping. We just sit at the side wait 4 ling buy her pants. Haha~ Later, we take the komuter den meet miao and her sis at KL central. Reached home by 5pm.

So ppl in all, I have a gud time in dis trip. And oso the 1st time I used my own salary go and travel with frenz. Really thank you to ling's aunt and her parents who offered place 4 us to stay and be our driver, fetch us go here and der. Haha~